One year AGO TODAY

[Heather8448]

If i can do this you can too! I became free life still happens people die, people hurt me, memories hurt shame and guilt, but TODAY I dont have to use NO MATTER WHAT!!
THIS IS MY STORY: anFor 3 months all I could say was God help me...on 6/19/2013 my world was turned upside down and inside out..I was taken to jail, and was told if I didnt go I would die. I was forced to leave. I now know it was God not answering how I wanted but in the ONLY way i would learn and live!. Thanks to my brother, for encouraging me to go to church I was delivered...I left almost everything I knew...walked away...and Thanks to my bff I had a place to stay. I just missed my dogs. So I prayed. and on 6/22/13 God found a way for me to have them back..My house was shot up my x owed a lot of $ he was in jail, I used but I didnt question where it came from...I couldnt find a doctor to fill my meds...I prayed and I found MH and on 6/25/13 I was delivered from the chains I became free ..Its amazing what has happened in a year TRULY AMAZING
I moved and found a home left most my life behind!
not my dogs...
I have been single for a year...have not touched a pill or anything in almost a year...
except weed I smoked a joint 140 days ago...
and I am proud. I wrote this today:
"She fell, she became broken, some said hopeless, but she held onto hope. She was lost, she was terified, she wanted to die. As she fell God lifted her up, and out of the darkness came a light...her hope grew, and then came faith...She had courage though she was afraid she kept going not knowing where the path would lead. She started to lose her old identity and is slowing finding herself. and one day she realized she no longer wanted to die, she no longer wanted to live, because this girl started sprouting wings...ever so small but the wings were there, and this girl was no longer wanting, she was doing, she was not only living, but with a new way of life and the help of her new friends, she was learing to fly!" -ME :)
#TrueStory #MyStory #Truth #GodSavedMe #Fly #Faith #Courage #Hope #Honesty #NeverAlone #NeverAgain #NoMatterWhat #Family #Friends #ThankYouForTheSupport #ILoveYou
Thanks MH Life still happens but today i dont have to use NO MATTER WHAT!!

[djoyg]

"some said hopeless, but she held onto hope"

That is really quite powerful. It doesn't matter what people say. You OWN hope. It's always in your hand. No one can take that away from you, not with words, not with thoughts, not even with actions. Because you own it, it's yours. A simple and beautiful truth.

[lulu747]

Beautiful post Heather and congratulations on your hard won clean time.  While I don't use GOD as my higher power, I definitely have faith in one and heard the voice in my darkest hour which called me to my journey of recovery.  Bless you sweet girl.  May you enjoy many many more years of clean life and boundless freedom.  You deserve it.
Love
Lu

[meegWpaw]

love your perseverance my Heatherdoll ... you have an angelic and pure outlook even in the face of some real hardship  ... glad you didn't use ... love you

[jleeflcntrygrl]

So happy to see your doin good! Prayers n positivity sent your way! God is good!!

[10356]

Hi Heather. I'm very sorry to read about your friend My Prayers will be going up for him !! You are right time does not equate recovery 1 day at a time is all we can do.. Today I choose not to use. Congrats on your recovery Heather I feel Proud for you ! I was very worried for you awhile ago and I'm so Glad to see that you hooked up with some great support groups !! You are working your recovery and it looks good on you !! take good care of yourself for, You are Precious.. lesa

[selfinduced]

Heather, your story has my eyes tearing and a lump in my throat. So in awe of your journey and filled with gratitude for where you are today. Get yourself busy today and cling close to your sober friends for support. I am so sorry to hear about your friend. Prayer's are headed your way.

[Heather8448]

I am not a year clean I smoked weed 142 days ago. I have been in NA for 8 months and have a HUGE amazing family, I am working step 3 right now...may do more on it tonight since I want to use today...I dont have to use but the craivings are there
even one day is a miracle, and clean time doesnt equal recovery a guy with over a year a friend is on a ventilator today and may have brain damage due to no oxygen he wanted to try meth one more time...Thanks for the kind words

[gnarly_1]

Hi great post my wife has been a christian for 26yrs she got clean and stays clean with the power of Jesus she is focused reads her bible every day we are active in our church  now for me im a believer but I have the disease of addiction so it takes work to recover its like the old saying goes if a drunken horse thief get clean you still have a horse thief  A yr clean is ausum and I for one are proud of you any time a addict does not you is a merical  keep doing what your doing it is working for you if you want to grow try N/A it will help take away all of the addictive ways it will be life changing...Gnarly

[Amandag78]

Congratulations on your clean time Heather !!!
Very beautiful post : )

[VICourageous]

Girl!! I am so PROUD of YOU!! I have watched and listen to you since the day you joined on here. There was something about you that just made me want to take you under my own wing (like a Mom).lol YOU have GROWN so much and sound so much better then ever..
I know there are many of us on here that had MANY Tragic things happen in our Life or during our Sobriety..BUT we just kept on pushing through each one day by day. Surrendering to our God is a must!! I would not be here today if it was not for that and ALL the outside Support I get..This site too is just full of Caring, Sharing SOULS and YOU are One of them..I love U Girl and you just keep on doing what you know is right for You!!
You have really, really come far..in MANY ways. (Hugs)
Bless

[saspan]

I,m so glad I took the time to read this. first thing god bless you and congratulations.you truly have an inspirational journey that very easily could have ended up in tragedy.sometimes it takes interventions from a higher power to set us free.i,m on day 9 and working toward a clean  future.keep  up the good fight.peace out!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[Sonrissa]

Amazing Heather! You've been through so much and have come out the other side. You have unbelievable strength and courage.  You are truly inspiring.  Much deserved congratulations!  I wish you all the happiness in the world. You deserve that and so much more. Take care!