Addiction is progressive, even if we stop for 10 years, we pick up as if we never took a break, not where we left off. Scientists are boggled by this and still don't understand exactly why. As a BP1 person and methadone addict, I think you are wise to be here. You are in the early stages of addiction, so it seems hard, but it gets way harder with time. It has taken awhile, but my BP is way easier to control after being sober awhile. I had to come up with a different kind of "fix." What kind of therapy or counseling are you in? The recovery for addiction and BP are very similar for me, they both require more than willpower. I like CBT counseling, it has helped me to direct my thoughts in constructive ways and notice when they are self-defeating, wanting drugs is self-defeating.
Thanks for the response. I used to have huge problems with the tramadol as I was hospitalized for months at a time with Addisons Disease - so to begin with it was accidental addiction. Now I cant help myself. Ive swapped doctors numerous times to get my hands on it again, which with BP2 and BPD doesnt help. I'm having DBT, CBT and psychotherapy with anti-anxiety meds.
I didn't realize your body picks addiction back up. So I really am messing it all up then - I thought I was just cleaning the slate and starting again. Whoops.
I would suggest talking to your most trusted therapist about addiction,, like knowing it's progressive, there is a lot of knowledge that helps a lot. I would also alert your prescribing doctor and pharmacy that you are an addict. You can digest that awhile, telling people is hard, but having no accountability is worse in the long run. Set yourself up to succeed, leave no bridges unburned that lead back to opiates. We think we are stronger than those drugs, but man has grown and consumed opiates for over 5000 years. We still can't figure out how to sell them and not end up with a bunch of addicts. Drs, actors, CEO's, day laborers, gangsters, nobody is immune, it is not so etching to hide.
Hi SAM welcome to the forum I to agree with Weaver as for addiction if your asking yourself if I am one you probable are.... our disease will lye to you and if left to our self we will self distruct the first chance that life throws you a curve you will give in you got a track record show us that you are a addict any time one abuses like running out early or not following doctors orders you have the behavior....for me I tried a substance abuse counselor church groups an I abstained.... now for help I trued to the rooms of N/A I was able to find recovery I still got to 4 meetings a week it works if you work it also this forum can help but it does not replace one addict helping another please consider this ''you never have to pick up again'' this simple program can arrest the addiction then recovery is possible give it a try you will be welcome with a hug by people that care good luck and God bless.........................Gnarly.......................
I'm not sure a church group would be for me - I respect that it worked for you, and usually I'm willing to try anything. I think a lot of me if trying to hold onto the addiction part of my brain. I suppose its not nice to accept I'm an addict of anything.
Thanks for the responses guys, appreciated.