Ok I need some serious support

[Pjtwenty]

I'm on day six leading into day 7!  Which is great I know. I haven't made it this far since the early days.
My problem is i'm feeling great but not great. I'm having some strong cravings today. So much so that I actually called someone to try and get a few. Thank god they did not have any. Now I'm freaked out that I actually tried. Is this normal??
I feel good but horrible too. Does that make sense?

[Pjtwenty]

Thanks for the words htown. I guess I'll give it a shot, talking to her. It would prob be a good idea to tell my doc so they know not to prescribe them again.

[Htownnofrown]

Hiding your troubles from you wife will only detract from your recovery. Your clean now, and you can be honest. You had a problem and now your getting into the solution. I would think she could tell that you werent yourself when you were high, so it may not be as big of a shock as you think. You dont have to tell her right away, but she could be a huge support system for you if you bring her into the light.

Anxiety is very normal. We start feeling better physically and then its the mental part thats the toughest. Aftercare is the answer for these type of problems. Go to a meeting and get some numbers to cll when you feel like using, and call them. This will help get you out of yourself.

[Pjtwenty]

Thanks guys!  Yesterday was just so weird. I felt WONDERFUL as far as my attitude on life. I had a whole lot of energy both mental and physical but suddenly I felt this urge to use along with a lot of anxiety.  Is anxiety normal at this point. Now 7 days!  I think the anxiety is one of the reasons I felt the urge.
Any suggestions on aftercare when not even my wife knows what I'm dealing with. She is already under enough stress.  Maybe go to a counsler about my panic attacks. Which I have dealt with my whole life.

[gnarly_1]

HI and congrads on your first week clean...it can get tuff out there getting clean is the ez part staying that way takes some work....but you will find its ezer then what we had to do to feed our habits...I agree with the above posters AFTERCARE is a necessity..to many people think that its optional..its not...just ask anyone on this forum that has any significant clean time and you will get the same answer so check out a meeting if your not comfortable try another or mabe a substance abuse conslor but be sure to plug into something b/4 you wind up using again...good luck and God bless.....Gnarly  

[Htownnofrown]

Cant say it any better than avis. Get some kind of  support system in place.

[IBKleen]

You didn't act and that is great. Six days is fantastic!!!

I will mimic all here---aftercare, aftercare, aftercare. Next time you may not be able to say no......

[LeaAnn807]

Congrats!  One week down and a lifetime of drug-free living to go!  What you are going thru is the EXACT reason that we need some kind of support(aftercare) at home.  If you would have had a meeting to go to or a sponsor or pastor to call (or therapist) then you might not have made that call, looking for pills!!!  You may have, but the support would lessen the chances!!! : )

All my best, and congrats again!  

[avisg]

Yes it's normal .This is when you really need to get a recovery care program in place to help you.Whether it be meetings like aa/na or an addiction counselor or even a Church pastor someone right where you are that you can lean on when it gets hard .Hang in there and find some aftercare and congrats on your first clean week .Recovery care will ensure you have many more to come .