Hi pleasehelpme....welcome to the best forum around. I'm glad you posted. You do need help but I think you would get more answers if you made a new question for.yourself. this is an old post and lots of times they are overlooked simply because they're older. So please post a new question for us all to talk to you on :) we are all here to listen & we really want to help you!!!
Please help me i want to quit Oxy very badly, I am taking aobut 120mg- 180mg per day and want to quit cold turkey but am afraid of 1. The horrible Withdrawals and 2. I will give in to the temptation to return to Oxy once the withdrawals really hit hard. Also what should i take that will put me to sleep at night that I can get over the counter or make myself?. Thank you for the help and support......Stay strong!!!
You came at me hard Dave but rightfully so. In reading a lot of the topics here I can really see what I was fortunate enough to miss. Your comments (and others) we're taken to heart by me and they actually provided the needed mental boost. I took on an "I'll show these guys" attitude and it seemed to have helped. There was no way that I was going to be wrong. And believe me, I'm not much of a gambler so I'm not going to roll the dice and hope for the best, I know how big of a mistake that would be.
I would like to briefly explain my reason for continuing to administer her meds. Admittedly, when she first got her refill there was a brief sense of euphoria and yes, it played a role in my agreeing to stash them for her. My overriding thought though was that she's battled these things for years now and she's making an honest effort to get off of them. I only went through a six month stint. Not wanting to call friends or family into it I figured that if either of us was going to start abusing again I'd rather put myself through it than her. Fortunately I resisted and I just can't see anything that would ever make me take one again. There's no desire at all, in fact there's a fear of them that's keeping me away too.
By the way, the prescription that she refilled about a month ago? It was for a quantity of 90 - 20's. She hasn't asked for hardly any of them and after last nights post of mine I did a quick count. There's 78 of them still there and she's strongly considering asking her doctor to stop prescribing them. I'm encouraging her to do so, I'll let you guys know what she decides.
Thanks again for everything!
Its the truth of the matter disco..It "will" sneak in and reek havoc on a person before they even have a clue it has taken over mind ,body, and soul. Thats a fact..
I'm glad to hear you did the right thing Newabuser..We did come at you hard for good reason..You don't want to get first hand knowledge of oxy wd's to realise you want to part company with them..You just don't..
I wish I had found this site prior to my involvement with the oxy meds..It would have saved me alot of grief...I'm real happy to hear you decided not to test the waters anymore..You truly got very lucky..By all rights you should have gotten hammered...
PS.. I forgot to put quotations around the bit that Dav 125 says and differentiate between his and my writing.
The part that starts "WALK AWAY NOW BECAUSE IT WILL GET YOU" Is mine, and everything thereafter. Before that is Dav125's words of wisdom.
Thank you to Dav125. :-) You make a lot of sense.
PLEASE LISTEN AND LISTEN GOOD!
You know that song by Cher.. "If I could turn back time.."? Well you can't. I wish you could, but you can't. If I could turn back time I would go back to the year 2006 when JUST LIKE YOU I wrote to a substance abuse forum I had just joined. I had started to become worried about my use of Endone (instant release oxycontin, equivalent to vicadin minus the acetominphen (what you American's call our Australian Paracetamol)
At that time I was taking one and a half 5mg tablet every day of the week, and I felt no ill effects if I stopped (apart from 'wanting' the pill). I was concerned because I had gone from half a tablet once in a blue moon for migraine, to half a tablet once a fortnight or so whether I needed it or not because it relaxed me. After the death of my best friend by suicide I realised these pain killers treated ALL kinds of pain. Especially the emotional kind. The pain was unbearable. So I upped my dose to a full tablet, and started to take it a few days a week. Then every day. Then one was no longer effective, and I broke a second into quarters, popping one and a quarter into my mouth every day. That went to one and a half. At this point I wrote in to the forum, asking a very similar question to the one you asked.
I received many very similar answers to those here. The one that resonates with me is :
by Dav125
Feb 15, 2011 03:11PM
It sounds to me like your lucky here as "if" wd's were going to hit, they would have done so..
You are being graced with "one chance" to avoid the consequences because by all rights, you "should be in the throw's of withdrawal.
Walk away now and don't look back, but don't forget either. Next time, if you allow it to happen, you will get broadsided like a concrete truck hit you..I've played with alot of things over the years. I lived what you stated above that "well, nothing happened so I'll be ok continuing from time to time. How wrong I was.. I got nailed by these oxy's.
I was in danger before my first defense mechanism ever got a clue...
Walk now...It will bite you,,and hard..
WALK AWAY NOW BECAUSE IT WILL GET YOU. I don't mean IF I mean WHEN. I should have listened to the person who kindly gave me that advice five years ago, because it cost me everything I ever cared about. The disease of addiction sneaks up like a thief in the night. You don't see it coming. By the time it has you in it's grips it's too late to 'decide', the disease will do all your choosing for you. The price will be far more than you can imagine right now.
You are already a little addicted. You just don't know it yet. So far it's psychological addiction, not yet physical dependence. There is a difference. Once you have the two going together - the mental CRAVING combined with the physical NEED, that's the point that your medicine becomes your drug.
You won't want to listen to this. I didn't either. Oh, sure, I took it on board, that's why I still remember it today. But I told myself it wouldn't happen to me because I would be careful, and stop before it got too late. I had a chance to get off that roundabout and I didn't. It sped up and went faster and faster and faster until I realised that it wasn't ever going to stop, and if I was to get off I would have to jump, and it was going to hurt like hell. Excuse the analogy.. am thinking on my feet here. Looking for words powerful enough to reach you before it's too late. I don't know you from a bar of soap, but then again I do.
If you do nothing else, take not of what Dav125, and others here have said. Keep a journal. Mark your usage. Draw a graph in a months time and see what happens. Constantly stock take. Stay vigilant. It's your life. Don't blow it!!!
Sorry if I come across preachy.. It's just that I wish I'd listened to this advice myself when it was given to me, before it was too late. If you read my profile bio you'll know what I'm talking about. :-(
Be strong. Be happy. Take care. :-)