Oxycontin withdrawals

[ryanbean]

Hello world- first post on this website....figured it might help to do some type of forum or something. I've been addicted to oxycontin/percocets/suboxone (off and on when not getting high, for almost 2 years now. My life has completely changed, but I don't need to get into that. Let's basically say I used to be the captain of high school sports, you know the whole jock story, and then got into drugs hardcore, went from 185 lbs to 140 lbs. Anyways, tonights my last night, trying to get clean for probably about the 5-6 time, this time withdrawing with my suboxone perscription and then hopefully after like 6-7 days of that I'm going to do it cold turkey and go on the buprenorphine shot, which is bascially the only road to recovery I haven't tried yet. I'm not even going to bother to go to detox either, since I still managed to maintain my suboxone perscription because I brought fake urine to every appointemnt to get my scripts and sell them, like a good addict knows how to. Anyways, since I know the next few days will be hell, and I'm on top of the earth right now because I just did my last "hoorah" of three 80's in one ding-****, I decided to try and join in on some online help. Have a good one everyone and best of luck to everyone else suffering out there. Hopefully this'll be smooth sailing....

[Kevin_Bacon]

Well, it's difficult to advise someone who's using coal shovels of oxy to get bent, and thinks a stint in detox will fix everything ...

With your attitude, ryan, we'll be seeing you back here sooner than later.

If you want this to work (it appears you don't care), you better grow up real fast.

Judgemental geezer? No -- I wish you the best, but if we don't see you here inside a month, I'll eat my cat.

Think about it.

[ryanbean]

new update: which i think is the right decision, i'm going into detox tommorow morning....it ***** because i had to waste even MORE money than last night to do my whole last hoorah thing all over again, haha, but I told my parents today and they were very supportive, as they always have been, and weren't surprised at all, because they ALWAYS know when i am using drugs about a week into my relapse. Anyways, so I'm going into a detox first thing in the AM and then going to rehab and/or a sober house, and hopefully will do the right thing. Obviously, or maybe not so obvious, I definitely wont have computer access in detox, but may where I go next, so please leave any support, advice, help, etc. Anything will be appreciated during these tough times, and good luck to all reading that are going through the same.

[ryanbean]

thank you everyone....it's not going to good, as most addicts will do, i postponed it to tomorrow and ended up using today =(...its so hard, and my 21st birthday is tuesday so I'm so mentally screwed up on whether i want to be withdrawling during that and look back on my 21st birthday and have that memory and stuff....im just so confused...

[Kevin_Bacon]

that whole post got mangled by Vista -- not my fave OS -- but I think I'll just leave it.

[Kevin_Bacon]

The first time I went into a medical rehab (first, and best detox), it was early in the morning, and I just looked in well, if knocking over ll the furniture in te my "Bottle of Stupid," downed it, might have had a few drinks, and showed up on time at 8am. I guess I was quite blasted (no idea what was in the bottle), signed in, crashed, and got up late in the afternoon. Over the next 3-4 days, I learned to regret the "Big Finish," 'cause I couldn't walk for almost three days ... but what's done is done, and you've forestalled the w/d's for a few extra hours, and don't worry about it. It's expected behavior. By the way, when I spoke to the floor MD a few days later (when I couldn't m'ove), I mentioned that, at the very least, I showed up in  presentable shape. He said, "Well, if knocking over every stick of furniture in the lobby and falling down two flights of stairs fits your description of "presentable," you came through in flying colors.". I suffered a lot for that, but at least they had a sense of humor.

Come back and let us know how it's going -- a lot of people here actually care about people they'll never know (quite unique), and I foresee some difficult times ahead for you. If you have internet access, you'll be surprised at the help offered here, all free, no strings attached ... a unique site, by any standard.

You may be ready for "Cat Hypnosis" in a week or so. It's really catching on ...

[10356]

Hello and welcome to the forum.. it is late and you might have to wait for answers as I do have a lot of knowledge of sub.. but someone will be along that does.. Please stick around and read.. search the archives for others stories of sub and sub wd.. Knowledge is key.. glad you are seeking ways to get clean.. but please educate yourself on what you are contemplating.. getting clean is hard work and one that aftercare is necessary.. I hope you seek these avenues also.. I wish you well on your journey.. lesa