I have to remember it took more than a month to develop this addiction, it will take more than a month to recover from it....it's hard to be patient some times.
Hi Flutter, yes it's hard alright, but boy one month clean, I am so glad for you, please stick at it, we all will help and encourage as much as needed and more, these guys and gals on here are truly amazing, no names mentioned, but they helped me more than I can say, 3 gals in particular, and they know who they are, took time and trouble to answer my posts, even emailed to help, for that millions of thanks.
So keep the old mind clear bud, let the sunshine in, and think of yourself sometmes, you gotta be strong to be there for your others. it will turn out just grand, trust me, and keep reading the success stories on this forum, makes my heart feel real good when aomeone posts having kicked the ****.
TWO YEARS? OMG...wow I had no idea that I'd have to spend as much time healing my brain as I did effing it up. I swear I have some things during the past year that people talk to me about (I was THERE) and I seriously do not remember, or at least not details. I stayed so pilled up after my injury (I had a good "excuse", I couldnt walk) that I really think I have fried some parts of my brain past repair. I guess 2 years to heal is better than never healing though. Thanks to you all, I DID stop, and am not sitting here wondering how to get the next bottle of pills. THAT I do NOT miss at all.
Bleh, what a ramble......
what a wonderful post- its just what i needed right now. Thank you so much. : )
i also believe that the amino acids should be taken for a looooooooooong time...
That was an excellent post. I agree whole heartedly. Thanks for taking the time to put your thoughts into text.
Enjoyed and need that post..thanx
I just read this. I too enjoyed these words of wisdom. I always tell people to be patient. That it takes time to rebuild your body. The main thing about PAWS is being armed with the truth of what can come along as bumps in the road to recovery. It is a new way of life. Stick to the clean path and it will repay you with a good life.
Good post. LOL But how would I know the difference in normal life cycles to PAWS? I remember before I ever did drugs haveing days like you just described. Wakeing up and feeling no energy or motivation, bad moods and haveing nights where I couldn't sleep. I guess I had PAPAWS Pre addiction PAWS. So Paws won't be anything really new for me. But thanks for the info.
Magi, You had MENA PAWS. LOL
LOL yeah, meno- paws and before that pms-paws
You may want to consider the possibility that you were taking the drugs to "cope" or "mask" the problems you were having. I'm starting to suspect that my anxiety existed (at least partially) in pre-addiction and that now that I'm clean that I have to deal with it as it's own issue.
I'm not saying that it is this way for everyone but it's something to be considered.
Well, this is my question; Don't normal everyday people, who have never been addicted to drugs or drinking have bad days? Doesn't everyone sometimes have a hard time sleeping, ya know, once in a while? Doesn't everyone get in a bad mood sometimes? Feel tired every now and then? Or do normal people go thru life sleeping 8 hours every single night of their life? Never, ever in a bad mood? Never tired?
Don't get me wrong here, I am in no way doubting PAWS. I know its real. I'm just wondering if I would know the difference between PAWS and normal life stuff.
I got addicted to pills because of pain, then liked the fountain of youth effect they had.
I was diagnosed with panic attacks 11 years ago. I had my first panic attack 31 years ago and then they became more frequent to the point I couldn't work, so I have to go to the doc just knowing they would lock me up in the mental ward. But the doc just smiled and diagnosed me, what a relief. I think that was why I was an alocholic. I quit drinking 2 years before I went to doc. It was a great relief to put a name to it. I think I was self medicating with alcohol. NOW I have a neck injury and take vics and am going to QUIT. All that to say you probably have panic attacks and just tell the doc there are non addictive meds that control that.
I say yes to normal people having bad days. PAWS is just that..Acute. How do you tell the difference? How would I know? LOL I didn't write the book.
Seriously, magi (& all) have you read the PAWS in the Health Pages? When I hit 60 days I got hit with depression like a brick. Yes I have had depression but this was different. Almost suicidal and I totally lost all hope and motivation. That's when I reread PAWS.
Why do you think I have panic attacks? LOL I am so far from the panic attack type person.
So, what your trying to tell me is that normal people NEVER EVER have a sleepless night?
Normal people NEVER EVER are in a bad mood or tired?
Before pills I would have a sleepless night maybe 6 times a year. Is that excessive?
Bad mood... not to often, but it would happen.
I've had 1 real panic attack before pills, prior to a surgery. Is that excessive? Do I need to go on pills for that?
I'm sorry - I'm new to this forum and I read duckandcover thinking it was you. I didn't mean to offend you.
Oh no, that's why I said acute. It is when things are way bad. LOL
Ok, Thank you Goingtomakeit, thats all I wanted to know. WOW, thought I was going nuts there for a minute.
I will reread PAWS stuff. I know after I went cold turkey in Oct. and stayed clean for 2 months, I did go into a bad depression. Thats why I relapsed. THAT was PAWS.
"I guess I had PAPAWS" Oh my gosh, I don't remember the last time anything made me laugh as hard as I did when I read that!! ROFL If you guys can hold on to your sense of humor while you are getting clean, you can do this!! I love and pray for every last one of you!!
mawmaw (no kin to Papaw...LOL)
mawmaw and papaws I am LMAO. I had to show my wife this.
I think I am going through MEN oh Pause!
I often too have wondered about whether I may be blaming too much on the pills...I do think I am more tired tho than I was before I started using...was tired alot then too tho...one reason I used...was depressed at times too...another reason I used cuz it made it go away...like quick!..I do see the physical reasons tho that would account for having more of the depression and fatigue after relying on the pills for these things...the body is a fine turned machine...when it is getting endorphins from an outside source, it will eventually produce less and then you put yourself into endorphin shock when u quit the outside endorphins/the pills...makes sense the brain needs time for repair....I do know that some of it is getting used to feelings and feeling the stuff others have to feel every day...things I decided I did not want to feel anymore/like depression/fatigue..so maybe it is a mixture? Right now I cycle...bad day yesterday and a good day today...I then try to figure out anything i did differently on the good day so I can keep doing it!...
When you figure it out, let us all know.