Please need support for wd from opiate-fail=jail

[11Lunaria]

Hello,
Im looking for somebody or a few people who have gone through this to help push me through and keep me on track so I dont **** my whole life up.  I have 8 days before a court hearing where I will receive probation.  I have a medical mj card and am prescribed klonopin so I can have those in my system but I cannot have any opiste in there which is what got me in this position in the first place.
But as far as everyone around me knows, I am not an addict and am just going through the motions of court:   Little do they know I am about to go through be roughest week of my life that I haven't been able to get through yet as far as the mind **** goes.  I don't think my wd will even be that bad Bc im not doing that high of a Dose, but I sm so used to doing it everyday for the past 2 years functionally as I go to work and school until I got caught doing something stupid. So now I have to get clean so that I don't ruin everuthing Ive been working towards and paying the lswyer to help me get my reckrd erased with this probation. I can't fail it and I cajt have anybody know and I have to do it on my own. Today was my last day using.  I have pot, klonopin, clonidine, and seroquil to help with the symptoms as well as pepto and other regular household pain killers.  Any other suggestions?  I need motivation and somebody to help me get through this pleSe! I have no friends near me who know about it.  Please help

[CROWNS100]

Honey, in todays world they are so prevalent. I absolutely cannot deal with the pain I experience every day. I was diagnosed with a chronic pain condition 5 years ago and was prescribed pain medicine, I had never even tried them before in my life other than when I had a hysterectomy when I was 29 years old. I never even finished those off, I threw them away when my pain subsided from the surgery...Did not even know about addiction to anything back then. I am now 54 years old and NOW having this pain on a daily basis, I have no choice but to take them for relief or I would never be able to get out of bed. Having said that, I am prescribed to take 5 hydro 10s a day and now that is not enough for me anymore. I am not only physically addicted to them, but I find myself wanting more and more on days I could get by with k just taking 2. I have experienced withdrawal from running out too soon and no matter what you try, you will experience some horrific feelings. Clonidine is a BIG help, but I am afraid you still will have cravings..if you give in, which most of us do, because I (addicts) want that LAST pill that will at least help us get over that HUMP...which is the worst day of the withdrawal, so we tell ourselves. I feel like I'm rambling on, but the bottom line is this. Your family will eventually no if they don't already and there's no shame, if you truly want to quit, there is no shame in admitting do your Addiction and asking for help and support from your family, friends because some of us what do you think we can get through it on our own but if you or anyone on here is addicted that bad you may need intervention with a rehab center. I know I should probably be in a rehab, but although I know I'm an addict I just can't get through a day without Something to help with this extreme pain. I suppose what I'm saying honey Is I understand how you were feeling. But when you're hiding it and even telling yourself lies, things will never change. Reevaluate your life and determine what is most important. I know it is hard and embarrassing and humiliating for some people to find out That we are addicts and for those who want to humiliate us for doing it there is karma Were those who do not support someone who wants to quit. I do hope you get through everything and I hope and  you don't lose what I've lost in life and others on here I'm sure what Over pills. Hang in there get the help you need it is your it i not anybody elses. Stay strong and pray even if we think.he's not listening, he has your back!!!  I've rambled on enough. Love and hugs to all of us addicts. The one statement I love the best, what we do does not make a bad person, good people make bad decisions too. Good luck to all of us! I realize I've made spelling and some commas are needed, but I hope you get the jest  my texting.... good people make bad choices and we let things such as pills or alcohol take over our lives! But we all know there is life after addiction. However  we will always be addicts, always in recovery!!! When we're trying to quit there will always be some desire to take the pills or drink the booze. It is up to us to keep it under control. Get the help you need if you can't do it on your own! There is no shame in wantingto better our lives. Just stay away from the negative people and keep a smile on your face even though you want to cry... It can get better just WANT it!!! :-) One last note: The biggest start in recovering is to truly admit you are an.addict!! I am an.alcoholic and a drug addict....NEVER ask for it, but I can ask for help to start living again!!!'God Bless or Bless yourself with your higher power.

[dominosarah]

Our secrets keep us sick~  Doing it your way has gotten you into this mess.  Get honest here and reach out, you wont regret it~

[Jiffjoffenbar]

If it takes the fear of incarceration to motivate you to get clean there's nothing wrong with that!!! Whatever It takes is better than staying stuck in the hellish addiction cycle... Jail has saved my life numerous times... It sucked,of course, but I'd rather be in the slammer than dead...hope everything went well with Court... Probation is a long term commitment,and from personal experience they have no problem locking u up for the littlest violation... Good luck!!

[jifmoc]

Yeah, lots of peeps on here have either been in jail or close to it. I remember forging prescriptions and it was just sheer luck that I didn't get caught. So, I hear ya.

Trust me, we've ALL been where you are in terms of the withdrawl. Yes, it blows. But the good news is that it ends. Look up the Thomas recipe on here for aids in the wds.

Sorry if I missed this but did you start already? Make sure you cut your sources so you have access to none. Post as often as you like there is usually always someone around who will answer. Peeps are on here constantly terrified of detox. Go back and read some, you'll see how NOT alone you are.

Glad you posted again and stay close!

[11Lunaria]

I am absolutely trying to get clean. I was thinking about what you said earlier jifmoc, and I agree besides the pot  and benzos which I don't feel are an issue right now but I don't just want to not go to jail, I want my life bsck and I want to have money and stop living behind a curtain keeping secrets from those I love.  The jail part is just a motivation at this point and a deadline, but I thought by including that in my post people might be more likely to read it and help me.  I truly want this and need support. Please

[jifmoc]

Hi there. I apologize if this comes across preachy, but if you are just trying to avoid opiates in order to avoid jail you are screwing yourself. And you're still taking weed and benzos on top of that. We addicts do stupid things to get our drugs. You did and you got caught. What's gonna be different after this? What will keep you from doing this again? Addiction always gets worse, not better.

If you want help w/ how to quit drugs and STAY clean, we can absolutely help w/ that. Let us know and keep posting.

[Bones07]

If I were you I wouldn't delay withdrawals any longer id start them now!   8 days before your court hearing is not that long. The sooner you start this the better off you will be. I just jumped and I'm on day 3 ... It's miserable, and we can do this together.