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Relapse...

Well I am into day 2 of getting off pain meds again.  I was on Tramadol this time.  Damn it I was not taking anything for over a year and then I had my fifth kiddo and my headaches came back times 10.  With 5 kids I was desperate to get rid of the pain and was okay with the doc giving me Tramadol and I only took them for 3 weeks.  Now after seeing how I am slipping back into old habits I stopped and figured I would have to deal another way with the headaches.  Well now I am on my second day of not taking one and I was hoping since I was not on them that long that I would not get hit so hard.  I have not been able to sleep and I feel like I have the flu times 10.  I am KICKING myself that I allowed this to happen!!  My brother just called to tell me about a girl we knew that overdosed a couple nights ago.  With her kids in the house.  I looked at my kids 5 faces and OMG what the HELL was I thinking!?!?  I am SO OVERWHELMED today and so depressed.  God let this pass...please....let this pass quickly....

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Hey there,

Listen, I am back here from a relapse as well. I was clean for 30 days, got pneumonia and the flu at the same time... Them next thing, I filled my script. I didn't abuse them as my husband have them to me. I am closing in on day 3 now and I have done nothing the past few days but beat myself up over the guilt and shame I felt. The bottom line is, it happens to the best of us. Just pick up where you left off and know that each day gets better! You know this, you have been through it before. We are all here for you, no judgement passed. Please post often. This is temporary an it will absolutely pass!!
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Day 2?, you're almost past the really bad stuff, at least in my recent experience. Day 3 was my worst. 5 kids! You must love that soldier, hope he's there to be at your side.  You can do this,

Good luck and stay well
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