SUNDAY IS IT!

[wransomejr]

For those of you following my posts....I have told several people, but think I need to make my decision public, for my own good....Sunday following work NO MORE PILLS. I am already dealing with the restlessness 1/3 of my night every night, and really, as this is what I hate the most, I am tired of dragging it out any longer. I said I needed time to make up my mind. Well. Done.

I live with my parents. I have fallen off the wagon once so know the drill. I need to be where I can be up 24 hours and piddle around if I want. I simply can't sit still. First has been the creepy crawlies, and I know the bathroom is next. I am going to our lake house. The river is huge, the house beautiful and comfortable, and I can watch movies, read, walk, swim, etc at will without disturbing anyone. I am planning on Sunday night, all of Monday and Tuesday. I will probably drive back to town to check in with you guys. No internet out there. Plus my mamma will be worried and it will let her see I am alive and okay. No way to get pills out there either without driving miles and I am going to keep my gas tank LOW. Finally, my dad has a bottle of Tramadol hidden in their room somewhere and I don't want that calling my name, and it will. I have searched the house for pills in the past and I can smell them out. I swore after my Tramadol detox I would not touch them again and I did not, but the temptation to mediate the detox would be there and I really HATE tramaPUKE. I have not come to the point of hating hydrocodone. I need to get mad at it but so far all I can say is I put myself back here. It certainly was not the pill's fault.

Cheer me on guys....I will need it. I went to my niece's ballgame tonight and that was fun. I have an elaborate funeral (Scottish woman) to perform tomorrow (I am a classical organist) and my niece's 11th bday party. Then work/church Sunday. Then detox. I AM GONNA BE FEELING FINE FOR MY 50th on May 23rd. My churches are throwing a huge come/go reception, and if I have to fake it a little I can, by then. I so appreciate the gesture.

-Randy

[minn66]

Hi Randy, just wanted to offer encouragement and support. You've already done well with the tapering. Best wishes to you, I believe you have an excellent plan and will do great!

[wransomejr]

Thanks everyone. I am down to 3 (okay, I cheated a couple of times and had 4) 7.5 Hydros a day from an average of 8 but those were 10's.

I was easily going 12 hrs with nothing before I decided to quit, and now, with this decision and brief taper, I get antsy and mainly my knees feel wonky by 4-6 hours. So if I take a pill at 10ish, by 4 a.m. I am VERY antsy and all I can do is lay in bed because I don't want to disturb my 77 and 78 year old parents.

Gnarly...about a friend. Don't have a non-druggie friend I trust with this info, but I have given some thought to being at the camp alone. I can tell Sheri, our neighbor, and she can check on me. When I did this before it was all pretty standard detox stuff. Nothing like I had feared. I can always get in the car and come back to town or call for help.

Sonrissa...a southernism, I guess. I enjoyed a lot of well-meant comments during my 10 years in California.

Waiting for someone to get their butt out of bed so you can get a pill is NO fun! I am so ready to be done with this!

-Randy

[littlebit667]

Sounds like you have a plan.  We all need that to keep us moving forward down the clean path.  My plan was to survive and with the Thomas Recipe and family that is what I did.  You can too!  Can't think of anything better than to be miserable with a wonderful view!  

Some of us have to relapse a time or two or 5 finally get it!  I know I did.  
Good for you!  

[Sonrissa]

Randy! First of all "piddle"! LOL I love that word and haven't  heard it for years! It made me laugh & smile! You have a great attitude and I have faith in you! Best wishes and I will send prayers your way!

[Pat1956100]

Hi Randy,
I am so happy for you. I know you have been struggling with this decision for awhile.  Please check in with us.  We will be thinking about you.
Pat

[gnarly_1]

HI now is time to prepare look up the thomas recipe on the lower right of this screen get the stuff suggested also get a case of gatoraid you dont want to become dehydrated the best thing you can brig with you is a positive attitude this is a win win you will no longer be chaind to a pill bottle this isent your first time so I will skip a lot but dont forget about a hot bath when you feel like your crawling it would be a good idea to bring a friend with you a lot can go wrong detoxing good luck to you and God bless........Gnarly  

[donewitis]

Congrats on ur decision..you have a good plan...stock up on Immodium and gatorade..etc..and get this poison outta ur system.
Wishing you all the best and an early Happy Birthday... year ahead.

I am benzo and oxy free...and lookin' forward to a clean and sober 50th the end of this year.