Hello! I just finished a successful suboxone taper, and I wanted to lend my support. It's going to be a roller coaster ride ahead of you girl. Your emotions are still being numbed from the subs.....there still an opiate. Your sleep is going to be inconsistent for a little while, and you may experience med-mild symptoms, depending how fast you taper. I agree with the other posters that you'll need support. I've learned that I couldn't get clean on my own, and I needed a boat load of support to help me. Today I've got 126 days, which I NEVER thought was possible. I also took Gabapentin which helped with anxiety and pain thru detox, however I was on a much higher dose than you. Salmon Oil also helped me sleep. 2 hours were better then none! Reach out girl, ask for help, don't be so self reliant. You're fighting the devil, alone. Suggestion: Could you take a "sick" leave from work for a few weeks instead of pushing yourself so much and not focusing on your recovery? Addiction is a disease!!! I'm here for you.....Experience, Strength, and Hope,,,,,were in this together! It works, if you work it!
-FS
Day 6 on 1/5 a milligram!!! Wahoo!!!
Our secrets keep us sick. You said noone knows, does that include your boyfriend? Are you getting the subs from a doctor? Recovery care is very important. We need to deal with our demons and put them to rest. Using is just a symptom of what goes on in our head. You know what you want to do and now you need to put that plan in action. You are not alone here so please keep talking with us.
It's really cool to have your pharmacist say "did you go down again?!" And give you a high five when you go pick up your meds. I said yep - hopefully this is the last one :-) feeling excited and proud.
Hi, welcome back. As you can see, the forum is not like it was. Very sad. So, it takes time to get a response. Since you were hear before, you probably know what's coming: what will you do to ensure that you stay off? What was your DOC that lead to subs in the first place? The reasons for checking out is the stuff that needs to be addressed. That certainly doesn't go away on it's own. You'll notice that anyone still left giving feedback on this site has several years clean, and every single person is in serious aftercare. I still do 4 to 5 meetings a week and I've got 3 years and 4 months clean. If I could have done it on my own, I would have. So would everyone.
Getting through detox is really just a matter of time and a half decent attitude. Look up the Thomas recipe for some ideas. Keep checking in. More will be along with more support:)
Bumping up for my friends.
It's been 11 weeks (77 days) no subs!
You can do this!
It's been another 20 days. How are you feeling?
Stable on .125 mg per day. Been at this dose for about a month - been testing the water so to speak lengthening the hours between .06mg doses 12-24hrs - thinking the jump won't be any harder than some of my tapers at this point (based upon severity of symptoms). 2 more weeks and my crazy work schedule will ease up and then I'm jumping! Just wanted to check in.
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I’ve been on suboxin for four years ,taking 1/4 of a piece a day the smallest piece the eye can see why is it so hard for me to get off ?
I scanned in like 100 pages of documents and sent them off to my accountant this weekend. I always wait until late in the season, so that means tax time is almost done! One piece of advice I wanted to share is something I got from an addiction specialist when I quit back in 2012: There is a big piece of your life that is involved in the finding, storing, measuring, administering, and tracking of pills (or strips or bags or whatever your DOC is). I can tell by the way you’re so specific about dosage amounts that you’re very organized about this stuff (as I was as well). Finding a healthy hobby or pastime or activity to fill that void might serve you well. I was really proactive and tried several things at once, but what worked for me was carefully tracking, planning, and analyzing swim workouts. Art, music, crafting...there are any number of things that will give your mind something to seize on as a substitute.
One other thing: My observation based solely on years of reading this site is that you’ve tapered far and away more than most people do before jumping. I respect your methods and understand your constraints around work. But there will come a time when you’ll be simply prolonging your suffering by continuing to taper without jumping. Once you’re out of crunch time, make the jump! It is scary, but you can do it!
Took .125mg the last two days. Woke up this morning feeling like I was going through full-blown opiate withdrawals and thought what the heck why did I ever get on this stuff?!?!?!
Finally stabilized on .25 mg Day 2 on .18 mg... really don't think I can jump yet working so many hours but I'm not going backwards. Just taking one day at a time doing the best I can and seeking strength and peace from God. He's bigger than my giants. I pray he'll take this burden away if it's His will but understand too if it's something I just have to endure to come out stronger and never go back.
It's a roller coaster ride with ups and downs with in the same day- sometimes the same hour. I CAN'T WAIT TO BE FREE AGAIN! But I do wait because I can't miss weeks of work so I just keep struggling through the days knowing it won't be like this forever (slowly but surely). I'm so close. I REFUSE to go backward. I'm 33. Too much of my life and energy have been spent on this. I'm ready to move FORWARD. I'm struggling physically but I have hope and I have not lost faith. I'm at .25mg per day. Very soon I will jump. One hour at a time...
*Disclosure- don't read this if you need encouragement. I'm venting and having a tough time.*
I spoke tooooo soon!!! :-( So I was having a good day - emotions and senses heightened but still OK - decided to wait longer to take my .125 mg dose - I usually take it at 2 to make it thru the rest of my work day (I'm working 11 hour days) but I wanted to see how long I could go and maybe not take it at all. I only made it until 5 pm. By 4:30 my anxiety was MAXED out. I have the one and only cubicle in the MIDDLE of the office and I can hear smell and see everything! It's the worst scenario for over-active senses. I also stare at small numbers on a computer screen all day. Just some info...anyway...so by 4:30 pm I think everyone in the office had their glade pug ins turned up on full blast (PLEASE tell me if there is something that will take away my sense of smell for a while!!) - I was shaking my leg wanting to scream until they took me out in a straight jacket (I didn't though. I bit my lip until 6:30 and left almost running!) On my way home (in the dark) I got behind two fire trucks with lights on. (My head was already pounding at this point from the small numbers and strong glade.) It seems by the time I get off work I have a headache EVERYDAY and the car lights are already extra bright right now. I'm finally home - body hurts and I feel nauseous and my dog is whining wanting to play because I've been gone all day.....UGH! Can I really do this while working 11 hour days 6 days a week? I really don't want to wait any longer. I want to be DONE with this!!!!!!!!!!! I don't know what to do. My boyfriend tries to talk me through it but he's never been through it so sometimes I just want to scoff at him and tell him he doesn't understand - but I don't because I know how lucky I am to have him sticking by my irritable side. I want to go to a meeting to talk to people who actually do understand but HOW do I find the time when I'm so tired after work I want to die? Yes my sobriety is very important to me but so is work - I have bills and I live by myself and support myself. I realize this post is extremely pessimistic but I needed to vent - really just want to cry. This rollercoaster is tough - the downs can't be anticipated enough. I'm just overwhelmed and exasperated right now. PRAYING tomorrow will be better.
One day at a time... every day is hard now it seems but it's tolerable. I haven't lost my mind just yet.
Well...day 2 on point 33 mg - it sucks. Every muscle in my body hurts and my limbs feel like they weigh 500 lbs but this too shall pass just gotta keep moving fwd... one day at a time. Glad it's the weekend and I'm not working 6 days a week just yet.
Symptoms come a lot faster at this low dose. Usually takes 3-4 days to feel real bad but not now - just one. I do feel cruddy most of the time now so I'm going to make my next few tapers quick (or at least that's the plan) because I do think maybe at this point I'm prolonging it - this is just my personal experience and everyone is different. My doctor isn't telling me what to do; he's letting me make the decisions but is on board. I honestly think he thinks I could stop at any moment but I'm not so sure so he's going to let me jump when I'm ready which is better I think - to feel empowered vs. Forced. It gives me a reason to be proud of doing it.
Going down to .33 mg tomorrow. Yes, POINT 33 - 1/6 of a 2 mg strip. Wish me luck. It won't be long now before I make the jump.
Dang that should have said a 1/2 (a half) of a milligram instead of 1/5 LOL but I'm still very happy about it. In fact this taper was not as bad. I don't know if it's because I stayed on .66 mg longer or maybe the worst is over? Not saying I expect to feel good but I'm still relieved it was better then the last one. I'm thankful for the little victories and hurdles surpassed.