Singing to Chickens

[4tolive4]

Yup, you read it right. Was just outside singing Bohemian Rapsody to one of my daughters pet hens. Sure do hope the neighbors were watching. Feel very energized and clean today. The grip is losening. Here are some things that I'm looking forward to doing again. Ironically, I didn't realize I had STOPPED doing them until after I quit the meds. Ah, the haze of our prescribed alter-realities.....

1) Waking up and just laying in bed for a few minutes before getting up. NOT running for the bottle because after 7 hrs of snoozing, I've entered W/D in my sleep.

2) Actually WATCHING tv. Not just sitting in front of it until the wife goes to sleep so I can pop and lose myself in the workshop until 3 in the morning.

3) Eating good food and enjoying it. Eating bad food and enjoying it!

4) Living the moments with friends and family. Not living till the next fix.

5) Doing absolutely NOTHING. With Hydro, I always felt like if I didn't hop onto a project or fix something, or clean something, I'd be wasting perectly good opium.

[creek]

AWESOME POST!!!!!!!    I am so glad you wrote all that today.  Just what my dream is.  Your experience and feelings about the pills are exactly what I was feeling.  It is good to hear from someone ENJOYING recovery.  Keep posting...you are HEALING others.

Peace~

[Roofus44]

wishing I was your neighbor...hehehe...too cool ;)

[pgnscared]

Keep up the posts you give me more and more hope every day. Thank you!!!

[ScottQuit021907]

I agree with creek ... nice post! A friend of mine has always said something similar about pot - "You're wasting good pot if you aren't high while hunting".

This new reality is strange but in a good way. Still a bit hazy, but better.

[Marce4]

MAMA......OOOHHHH OOOOHHHH OOOOOOHHHH OOOOOHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!  LOL...So happy for you!!! I'll bet you made that Hen's day!!!!!!!

[NotProud]

Nice post. I relate. My kids were always (kids... 17,23) were always asking me why i had so many shows on DVR? Why did i watch tv so much? Why did i only watch tv, and read til 3am? What happened to our dad the runner? Why dont you care about your appearance anymore, or your health? How come you arent do so well at your job lately? Do you ever get off of that LazyBoy chair? Can anyone else have the 60 inch tv or is it only yours to watch every night? Why cant you go to sleep at 11pm like most parents and wake up at 7 or 8 and go running like you used to? All these questions and the answer to all was VICODIN!  My only real friend, my new running buddy, my answer to everything. I saw it in their faces, i heard it in their voices, but i always has an answer, and because they LOVE me, the accepted it but they didnt like it. I could tell. I became a different person. I stopped having sex with my wife or wanting any intimacy as i had it with the Vicodin. I didnt want to hang out with my friends because my best friend Vicodin was all i needed. I knew it was wrong, i knew i was f'd up but i did it because, it felt soooo good. So i am working to get to the point where i am living my real life, the one i was meant to live and the one i so desparately want to live.  As i wrote elsewhere, i am such an ahole that i took 9 on MONDAY knowing i was stopping on Tuesday. Did 1 1/2 T and W and had unbelievable stomach pain, stomach distress and hurt like a Sob. But for all the reason you listed. I am determined to fight like a wild animal to free myself and be the DAD they know/knew me to be. Ran three straight days, and am trying to get my job back in focus. That is hard right now as i work out of the house and temptation is there and i have no place to really go unless i make appts which i need to do. The point is i have taken the first few steps... Admit I am LOST, Admit I want to be FOUND, and then realize it is up to me to be strong and FIGHT like crazy to get thru. Tonight my wife gets my stash, and my secret stash minus 7 pills to last me one week or hopefully less, but at this point if i can use 7 pills in a week and have ANY over, i am really on my way. Great post, thanks.

[A man of faith]

Boy, I can relate, relate, relate.

I mean I really couldn't figure out why I it was so easy to sleep all the time.  
My RSD was so bad that the sleeping was just sweet release.  Plus my days and nights were mixed up so badly that my wife had to become the decision maker on every thing.  My physical condition was the worse, but having so much opium running through me was not a real plus.

However, last Thanksgiving my Pentecostal Christian Preacher man dad told me he saw me in a vision playing with my kids; running with them and having a great time with no pain.

The very next day all the RSD symptoms disappeared after seven years.  But after a month I was still living like a sick man because I was used to it.
But now I usually get up in the morning.  I can actually do things with my family again, and be more independent.
Then one day I had the bright idea of getting off the Duragesic patch.  The first hour or so I thought this is nothing hard at all.
But I've been more educated about that since.

Hoping and praying for the best for you.

man of faith