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Sobriety lessons

I was addicted to all pain pills first & foremost but I also got extra stuff week to week that helped "boost" them I guess. Addy or dextroamphetamine was my favorite add on. I have been sober almost 8 weeks now and the emotional roller coaster finally chilled out until today. My son was born with a rare syndrome and it really hasn't hit me until now that he's different. My wife and I have been through numerous surgeries and it somehow didn't bother me. Even when I didn't think I was high, I was high. Obviously it dulled my emotions to nonexistent. We had a doctor appointment to discuss the upcoming surgery and I didn't get the responses I was hoping from the doctor. Literally felt like I was dying in that stupid little room. I won't ever go down the long road I've been down again but geeze this is more intense than I could've ever predicted. It feels good to feel but at the same time twists your whole being into a ball of worry and emotions. It'll all work out one way or another and after writing this, I already feel better. Thank y'all.
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First off, congrats on eight weeks and I'm sorry you are going through hard circumstances...I know for myself, anything that is too "hard" to deal with, the first thing I think of is taking the edge off. So, very amazing you are doing so well, all considering. I guess the only other thought I have is that when I think of things having to do with my children, I already regret missing pretty much two years of their lives. So no matter how long I have them, under whatever circumstances, I strive to enjoy and relish every moment because if I look back at some point again and realize I missed any precious moment, that would hurt worse than whatever troubles there were. Best of luck, keep posting, this place truly can help. :)
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congrats on your 8 weeks. that's fantastic, prayers for your son. we as addicts have a hard road to travel, we can smooth that road out with help from our friends. we have to attend meetings and surround ourselves with things that keep us sober and happy.i,ve tried to do this alone so many times it just don,t work for me and I think it won,t work for anyone, aftercare and maintenance is the only thing that's going to keep us sane and happy. good luck in your journey ,. peace out!!!!!!!!!!!!!1
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