Some Encouraging Words for All :-)

[kimmieb]

ok, first, i'd just like to say that i wrote this whole long post and must have hit the wrong button or something, because the whole entire thing disappeared like smoke in front of me......arrrrrrrrrgggghhhhhhh.....so frustrating when that happens!!!!!  so, i'm gonna try to somewhat recreate what i wrote, but obviously it won't come across in the exact same way :-(   sorry!

i'm on day 7 now off of hydros, still struggling with the sleep issue and the lethargy and the wanting to jump right out of my own skin sometimes....still waiting for that "magical" day for me :-)  seems there are a lot of friends on here who are right around this same mark......i hope you're all doing WELL this day!

i also have a few "encouraging words" to share....was going to post in a journal, but wasn't sure how many would see, and i'd love if even one person would be touched and really feel these words in his/her soul.....so here I go....i'm sorry, i'm going to be typing REALLY fast (which i can do, but don't count on accuracy...ha!)

Here are the scriptures i found that may be pertinent to what we're all going through....

No, dear brothers and sisters, i have not yet achieved it, but i focus on this one thing:  forgetting the past and looking foward to what lies ahead.......Phillipians 3:13

He gives power to the weak and strength to the powerless.....Isiah 40:29

The Lord is close to the brokenhearted; he rescues those whose spirits are crushed......Psalm 34:18

Since He himself has gone through suffering and testing, he is able to help us when we are being tested......Hebrews 2:18

He comforts us in all our troubles so that we can comfort others.  When they are troubled, we will be able to give them the same comfort God has given us......2 Corinthians 1:4

So don't worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will bring its own worries.  Today's trouble is enough for today.....Matthew 6:34  (think "one day at a time"......or "one minute at a time"....but stick to today!!)

What is impossible for us (people) is possible with God.....Luke 18:27

Lord, you will grant us peace;  all we have accomplished is really from YOU.....Isiah 26:12

A person standing alone can be attached and defeated, but two can stand back-to-back and conquer.  Three are even better, for a triple-braided cord is not easily broken.....Ecclesiastes 4:12  (we all know THIS to be true, eh?!)

When you go thru deep waters, i will be with you.....when you go thru rivers of great difficulty, you will not drown......Isiah 43:2

Rejoice in our confident hope.  Be patient in trouble and keep on praying!.....Romans 12:12

Be kind to each other, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, just as God thru Christ has already forgiven you.....Ephesians 4:32

I will answer them before they ever call to me -- while they are still talking about their needs, i will go ahead and answer their prayers!.....Isiah 65:24

So let us come boldly to the throne of our gracious God.  There we will receive His mercy, and we will find grace to help us when we need it most.....Hebrews 4:16

For our present troubles are small adn won't last very long.  Yet they produce for us a glory that vastly outweighs them and will last forever!!.....2 Corinthians 4:17

So humble yourselves before God.  Resist the devil (note:  our DOC IS the devil, we obviously know that!), and he will certainly flee from you......James 4:7   (Lisa, i know you said this was one of  your all-time faves...:-))

If only one or two friends on here gain some hope, some comfort, a renewed sense of purpose, or gain some much-needed strength, encouragement and support, then all of this typing (twice!) is well worth it :-)

Wherever you are right here on this day, whether still bound in the chains of addictions and lurking on this site for some help, whether in the midst of struggling with detox either the first or 10th time, are counting down the minutes instead of days or hours, are newly struggling with the daily challenges of sobriety, or are finally free of the "devil" and are rejoicing in you new-found sobriety and are on day 30, 60, 90, or are now counting in years!.....wherever you are, i'm sending you prayers, strength, support, and encouragement, and wishing you ALL the best.....congratulations for just being on this site and admitting your problems, asking questions, and/or starting the fight......i hope you all go to Him and receive his free mercy and forgiveness so that we find the grace also waiting for us there to help us when we most desperately need it....God bless you all!!!!

Now go out and make it a great day :-)

luv to all reading this,
kim

[AshKer]

I agree, thank you for taking the time to write the scriptures. I would also like to reccommend a book that I am reading. It is called "The Shack". If you get the chance, please read this ONE book. It has touched my life that is for sure.

[jekorb]

Dear friend:  Thank you so very much for your kind, sweet words; they were a blessing, believe me.  The lump in my throat is so big right now, I can't swallow and the tears are prickling in my eyes.  And every word you wrote is absolutely true.  You are truly inspired.  I know I will hit that wall at some point; I've done it before and yet returned to tramadols.  I think that's what makes me feel the most like I've lost my marbles~~~b/c I've been there and went thru it and it was awful, yet here I am once again!!  I wish my spouse has not pointed out a year ago that I could buy trams off the internet.  If he hadn't mentioned it, I never would have gone that route, and when my legit MD script ran out, that would have been it (I was only taking 3 or so a week).  Since I was afraid of my MD (since retired), I would not have gone back to him for another script.  This all occurred around the death of my mother.  I cannot blame my husband, however; I didn't have the backbone to say I wouldn't buy them off the Internet.  I sure wish Someone "up there" would have given me a swift kick when husband started the ball rolling, so to speak.  

I will definitely keep your wonderful message to read and re-read.  You are blessed with the gift of comforting words and I am very much calmer.  Thank you, again, Kim, and God's blessings to you and yours, too!

[kimmieb]

YOU ARE NOT MENTALLY DEFECTIVE, for heaven's sakae!!!!!!  you are a beautiful, cared for, loved, precious child of God....you are NOT defective.....we may have gotten ourselves into these pills for various reasons, but bottom line, we WILL get ourselves off of them and resist the devil and he will flee from us!  there is no need to feel weak.....believe me, i lurked on this site FOREVER before i ever got the nerve to post, and even then, i still hadn't given up the hydros.....they still had WAY too much of a pull on me....i couldn't even FATHOM not having them, and i mean that in a very serious way....i couldn't even walk out of the house without the security of knowing that i had some with me in my purse, "just in case".    but somehow, someway, i and we all come to a point where we do make the decision to just try it, to just try, one day at a time, one minute at a time, to throw away those pills and start this process.....for me, if i had them in the house, NO WAY i'd ever be able to stop them knowing they're right there for the taking.....couldn't even flush them.....wasn't that convicted either.....i had to wait until i ran out of my script early, with a few weeks to go until refill time, before the decision was basically made FOR me.....i had no lortabs to take, no doctor to get them from, so why not bite the bullet and do what i have to do, even though it wasn't such a "pure" choice to begin with?  I am no stronger than you nor anyone else on this forum....we all are in the journey down the river, maybe in just different boats depending upon where we are in our detoxing or recovery.....but please know that just because you're not feeling 100% ready right now, you sure sound like you might be in the near future sometime.....for all you know, it may be so much less stressful than you're imagining it to be.....just think of it like a yucky case of the flu for about a week.....i'm sure you've handled that before....if you have to, just plead that.....but if you're not quite ready yet, stay here and read some more posts.....many are very uplifting, while you'll also see some struggling, but then you'll also see them come out on the other side (like me!!)  Praise Almighty God and Hallelujah!!!!!!!!  if you want to talk more, get your feelings out, ask some questions, discuss your biggest fears or trepidations about this, or whatever, please pm me....i'd love to talk....in the meantime, no matter what phase you're in right now, i know that you can eventually accomplish this.....i know YOU CAN DO IT TOO.....honest to God, i was you not that long ago.....thinking i'd NEVER ever in my lifetime want to or be able to give up these things.....i know i'm FAR from being out of the woods and standing on top of the mountain, but i've made it 8 days....and i have to always remind myself of that.....anyway, thanks for posting, and i'll look forward to (hopefully) chatting some more sometime soon!   God's Blessings on you and your entire family, kim

[jekorb]

Thank you and God's blessings to you for re-writing those wonderous verses!  They are so soothing and soul-healing.  I am still too frightened and cowardly to go through WD from tramadols, which have taken me over.  I go to church on Sundays and pray, pray, pray for the strength to go through this fire, but just haven't gotten it yet.  I feel so weak and ineffectual---not to mention ridiculous for finding this a mountain that I cannot yet think of climbing!  I just feel so damn stupid for having let Trams into my life.  Why can't I convince myself that I need to do this not only for my spouse and grown children but for my young grandchildren (with more coming)?  I don't want to die before they are even half-way grown but haven't been able to choose these vicious and tenacious drugs over my own family!  I must be mentally defective.  I pray my Rosary every night for help~~perhaps it'll come soon.  I can only hope.

[snowflake620]

Wonderful post,it also made me cry but hey I cry over t.v. commercials! keep up the good fight and stay strong congrats on your clean time
snowflake

[kimmieb]

i'm glad some of you took heart in reading the post.....i, too, am carrying the cross these days, my cross to bear, as they say.....but i certainly know i'm not alone on her....thanks for your comments and keep on fighting!  and remember, as always, you can NEVER overdose on God's word :-)   blessings to you all for a peaceful, restful night....cast your cares and worries to God tonight.....let HIM carry you through the most difficult times....i'm cheerin' for us all!!!!!     luv, kim

[beatingthis]

Ahh Me Too!!! I pray every night for a lot of reasons but I thank you for that. Reading that was just wonderful!

T.

[bigalspal]

I cried, too.
I've been praying asking GOD to take this cross for me & throw it into the depths of hell.
Thank you soooo much for the great Bible verses.
It means a lot to me.
Had a BAD night last night, but did not use!
Bigalspal

[jollyman069]

i am on day 11` so keep going it just gets better every day

[strong_woman]

arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh made me cry but thank you sooo much for posting that......good luck and congrats

[dominosarah]

Congrats on 7 days!!!!  You should be feeling better each day now.  Stay positive and keep fighting.............sara