Staying clean is hard ...

[lostsoulz85]

I honestly thought i would rather die then have to go threw w/d's again but since the trip to the hospital i have opened my big brown eyes to reality and know that its not worth losing my life or my family . Right now i am sad i just lost the person who loved me and i hurt him so he left me and i can not stop thinking of using just to block the pain of my broken heart now but i know in the end my heart heals and love will find me again ... I have not used since thursday and feel better just still tired from the meds thanks for all your help ;-)

[lostsoulz85]

I THINK THAT ALL OF US CAN OVERCOME ANYTHING ITS JUST GETTING THE RIGHT MIND SET YOU GUYS ARE GREAT THANKS

[jooler]

my wife n i split up for 8 months. i realized that the reason was i had nothing to offer her. i have a great job, my GREAT MONEY, but i was emotionally dead because of my addicton. after sum time apart, we pinpointed our probs n started working on them. healing all emotional wounds before the physical ones. now we r stronger than ever. this is all Gods will. maybe, after all is said n done, u2 can work on friendship n trust before trying a relationship. i know all situations are different but this is what worked for me. good luck lostsoulz...thank u for the words of encouragement when i fell fri night. im glad u went to the hospital to detox. congrats on day 4. im so proud of u. stay strong n we r here if u need us....

TO ALL THAT MAKE IT TO 7 DAYS.......

watch out for the mental cravings. dont give in. remove yourself for any situation that could cause u to use. now i can only say im 3 days clean instead of 11...dam relapse.

Thanx to everyone that lend a helping ear fri after i relapsed. This site is full of angels and u r my salvation.

GOD BLESS EVERYONE HERE

[dbgc]

seems like addiction seems to take away the most important part of our lives, our families. But i have been seperated over a year now and think i have a good handle on my addiction and beating it. we can only do this for ourselves first. Just to let you know maybe it is never too late to try to fix our relationships. My wife never did file the divorce papers in all that time and i think with all the trust i lost from lying to her about my addiction may be able to get back. Just know i did also cause a great deal of misery for her and hurt her very bad but we always talk and slowly maybe one day she will see i truly love her unconditionally. We dont say that our relationship will work out but lately i think we our both trying to patch things up, i know we still love each other and we are just putting out the feelers to see if maybe one day we can start over. I just want you to know it is never to late to make thiongs better but honesty is the only way to fix it, trust is so hard to get back it is like starting all over but well worth it if it can be fixed. hope you and your wife can work it out. I was married for ten years and have a 9 year old daughter so honesty is well worth it. Let me know if i can help.

[discretekarma]

I am in a similar boat. My wife is so sick of me getting high.  She is so sick and is pretty close to being done with our relationship if not already done. Even if she does chose to stay with me, there may be too much damage and lies already done for it to work.  We'll see. Good luck to you.

[sicothisstuff1234]

Hey keep your head up..breakups suck on a good day but realize that if you can get through this without using you can probably get through anything...keep up the fight!

[worried878]

I am sorry for ur break up..losses are hard..and big triggers for using....my divorce was my trigger/and i never realized it until after detox...and then i had to work thru all of it..but it was time..i just know using doesnt help..only makes it worse..stay clean..keep posting

[dbgc]

I can relate to your story.i too live in provo and lost my wife to my addiction. I just want to say i too after she left went on a tare of doing pills and it did not help but made things worse, the only way to deal is to clean up and get sober for yourself. then if all the cards work out later and things get better maybe there is a chance of thing working out between you and your partner. but you need to do this for yourself and it sounds like you are making a honest effort i hope you feel better and just give it time. my prayers are with you, you can do it.

[Ella789]

Being tired is a real drag.It seems to come with the package tho, and depression,  so watch-out for that too.  I sure don't want to go through w/d again so I am trying to be aware of my stateofmind.   Breaking up is tough at anytime, esp when trying to stay clean.  Keep up the fight,  you can do it!!

Ella

[outotown]

Yeah staying clean is hard we just need to get it thur our messed up minds that we are addicted and always will be an addict. If you ever need to talk or vent please look me up ok im a good listener Aaron