I mean like 3-5 glasses. So more than a couple.
I think you gotta deal with the reasons you self medicate and probably not do either but I agree that subs for sure are not the way to go. We all have stress, most of us have severe stress of one sort or another in our life and we are all fighting the battle to stay clean despite that stress.
I think going to meetings and learning some healthy ways to cope with stress are your best option.
I can tell you if you keep covering up the reasons with a substance you will never be free.
Not trying to be harsh - just honest. Keep posting for support.
You have been clean off Subs since last july!! Don't go back on them as a way to relax, How long have you been drinking? I know what you mean about not wanting to become an alcoholic, deep down you must know that Subs are not the answer. How long were you on the Subs?
Why do you need to take drugs or use alcohol? I think you need to see someone who can help you figure this out before making any decisions or you'll spend the rest of your life under some kind of influence to deal with life. Stressful job? Then start with that and see how you can make it less stressful, you're trying to escape. Sorry not being harsh, just want you to think about what's going on. Best of luck to you!