This is a Dumb statement.........but......

[hiding288]

Now read this with caution, and keep in mind this statement is coming from a person whom is trying to come off percs ok.  lol   Well Im so miserable,  the thought came to mind.......why isnt it a *** pill that the ***docs can give you to just fix you for this mess? Its crazy to me, nobody should have to go through all this to get free of opiate use,and abuse.  Its totally unfair.  I know there is suboxone, and etc....., but that still comes with a processing fee!  (meaning, it still takes time, and possibly withdrawals that come with that too)  OMG how do we get outta this ****, and stay outta it.  Especially once you have been exposed to it?  I know I have read some post of persons that have stayed off the pills for some yrs, but to be honest it is not as many as I have read that have relapesed, sooner or later.  I just hate this whole mess.  God help those who have NO INSURANCE...your really ******.  I just pray that for those of us who are going thru all this **** to come off these *** things, can some kinda way, by the grace of God, stay free of them forever.  I do know there are so many triggers thruout life that can break you down and you give up, and find yourself back in them shoes again.  I guess Im angry about this too now, Im in a terrible moody state today, on my day 13, forgive me for rambling.  I just hate everything right now, Im so tired of this mess, thats all.

[hiding288]

Wow, now that was strong.  I like what you said.  In the fire of this thing, we do need to be reassured....ya know.  This is my 3rd go round, so I know it will get better, and I see you understand where Im at with this thing.  I am strong willed, just weak right now.   We all have had these moments, and days.  So hopefully tomorrow, I will feel different, if not, then I will push my way to the next day, without using until it does get better, so I can really live.  Thankyou.  I couldnt have said it better myself.  You have just given me some more fuel to carry on.  God Bless.

[hiding288]

Thankyou, and I responded to your message.  You have a mess from me. God Bless you.

[solost170]

its totally normal to feel that way, I did if you read my post on day ten or 12 I was up and down and all over the place there where days I was so pissed off then other days I was so sad and full of anxiety I couldnt even go to the store. but I'm on day 21 and the anxiety is gone  I dont crave them I havent for a few days now. hang in there it gets better it really does go away. and you will find an amazing world out there, I also have pain issues big ones if you read my very first post you will understand they were taken away from me and I made my mind up I was done with them and I'm done with them. to me pills are evil and not worth it cause when my head cleared I realized how much damage was done while I was taking them and how they changed me. hang in there it gets so much better and when the chains come off its like being a free bird that soars in the cloads words can never describe how amazing it really is. keep posting everyone is here to help you and 13 days is great congratulations you are making it through it. you are so close to the prize love and light dear hiding

[buncogirl003]

hiding..........Check your inbox when you have time!!

[Free2agoodhome]

Anger is good. and normal...  however...anger held inside turns in to depression.

I wish they would have gave me non-narcotic after my surgery.
I think docors as a whole mean well,,,but cmon they have to know that a large percentage of the opiate scripts they write are not being used as directed...

I used for surgery then later to treat emotional pain. I feel bad for people with real chronic pain..hopefully more effort will be spent developing non-narcotic solutions?   (but opiates is big biz)

Replapse is heartbreaking but valuable to the person. The relapses can be turned around in to long term recovery. Relapse is often part of someones recovery but it doesn't have to be.

Day 13 is something to be proud of. Just take today  as will I and just be happy to be alive and clean,,,,,

You'll be fine,,you're right on track.

Free~

[mary577]

Okay....please don't take this the wrong way....but part of the problem with society today is they want a pill to fix everything.   That is how we get ourselves in trouble.   Hang on....better times are coming.

[gnarly_1]

HI your at the stage where its time to put aftercare in place those that do stay clean there are many forms but N/A is free and a great program it vital you get something in place to help you threw the mind screw of getting clean it really dose help..............Gnarly

[Pat1956100]

I really understand how you feel.  It is a long, hard battle and it can really get you down at times.  I have relapsed many times and all I can tell you is that I wish I hadn't.  It's just not worth it.  I wish I had the answers.

[hiding288]

Thanks.  I needed to hear that.  Im going to watch a movie to distract myself for a lil bit.  Hope its better tomorrow.  I will be in touch, and you have a blessed evening.  You have helped me today, with juat that small compassionate post.  Thankyou

[ImDONENoMore]

It's okay hiding.. anger is good as long as you're using it appropriately and not hurting anyone.  But I found anger to help a lot early on.

Soon you'll be posting to others and telling them it takes time to get well.  You'll see.