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THESE EFFING DOCTORS!
You will have to excuse me but I am furious with the worthless mofo's. I went to doctor #8 today in an effort to try and diagnose my problems. The sorry SOB had me diagnosed within :30 seconds of entering his exam room. When I informed him that I had previously tried all his suggestions he looked at me in a total loss. I explained to him that I have been searching for the past 3 years to try and find the root of my problem and that everything he had just told me had failed previously.
He told me that I had to get off my pain med...I agreed completely....and then asked him "What do I do when it is 3am and I am unable to sleep?" He had no reply other than to call me an "addict" and that I "would be dead by the age of 55 if I continued this current path." I asked him again for help and he offered me methadone which I quickly rejected. This is when he got angry with me and told me that he was ordering a blood test next week and to "try and make it." WHAT A EFFING WASTE OF MY TIME!
It is all I can do to try and control my rage and anger at this point. I am screaming for help and all the bastards can do is call me an addict. I REFUSE to take methadone. I feel a rage inside me that I have never felt before. I am sick of these damm pills but have no other option and these lazy bastards wont even listen to me. I realize that they are poison and that the pills are doing damage to my body but a person is only able to take so much.
I keep asking God for help and all I'm getting is silence and more agony. Is he there? Does he care that I'm suffering and screaming for help? It's hard to keep the faith when the one that is able continues to allow me to suffer. I know that other people have it bad but I am in a living HELL right now with no end in sight.
He told me that I had to get off my pain med...I agreed completely....and then asked him "What do I do when it is 3am and I am unable to sleep?" He had no reply other than to call me an "addict" and that I "would be dead by the age of 55 if I continued this current path." I asked him again for help and he offered me methadone which I quickly rejected. This is when he got angry with me and told me that he was ordering a blood test next week and to "try and make it." WHAT A EFFING WASTE OF MY TIME!
It is all I can do to try and control my rage and anger at this point. I am screaming for help and all the bastards can do is call me an addict. I REFUSE to take methadone. I feel a rage inside me that I have never felt before. I am sick of these damm pills but have no other option and these lazy bastards wont even listen to me. I realize that they are poison and that the pills are doing damage to my body but a person is only able to take so much.
I keep asking God for help and all I'm getting is silence and more agony. Is he there? Does he care that I'm suffering and screaming for help? It's hard to keep the faith when the one that is able continues to allow me to suffer. I know that other people have it bad but I am in a living HELL right now with no end in sight.
You did the right thing for posting here as far as I'm concerned. You were a huge help to me when I was going through my WD and detox period [remember that? -- haha] and I'm glad you posted here so that I can try and be of some help to you as well.
I agree with you SO much when it comes to these doctors, though. I know this is going to sound corny, but I took an interest in a show on TLC called Mystery Diagnosis. If you've never heard of it, you should look into it. A lot of the doctors and actual patients talk on camera about a "mystery" pain or feeling that would ruin their lives to the point where they would seek and seek and seek for help from doctor upon doctor until that ONE doctor finally came around and found out just what was wrong with them; Even though so many other doctors before them had stated time and time again after numerous tests that nothing is wrong.
It all goes back to the saying that I've heard being said so many times over and over again, and that is that you MUST be your own advocate in a situation like this one. If you know that there is something causing you thus much pain, then keep looking. The only bad thing is with this, is that this is what has been going on with me as well. Not the same symptoms, BUT the same scenario where so many doctors continue to do X-Rays and MRI's and other scans and always come back to me telling me that the only evidence of pain they can see from the scans and/or tests that they have ran is a cyst on the back of my knee, which has caused back pain for me in trying to compensate with my walking, etc. The bad thing that comes with this, is that I try over and over again to be my own advocate on all of this, so I keep going to so many doctors to try and get an answer/solution to my problem... But then people and doctors within the medical field view me taking these actions as "doctor shopping" and that isn't my intentions what so ever. Doctors can be too judgemental at times, and for that I am sorry because I know how much it must have ticked you off when that doctor said what they did to you today.
Did it ever cross your mind to complain to the office manager there about the ways in which he spoke to you and handled the situation with you today? That is just what I did when my PCP talked to me the way that he did. UGH!
I agree with you SO much when it comes to these doctors, though. I know this is going to sound corny, but I took an interest in a show on TLC called Mystery Diagnosis. If you've never heard of it, you should look into it. A lot of the doctors and actual patients talk on camera about a "mystery" pain or feeling that would ruin their lives to the point where they would seek and seek and seek for help from doctor upon doctor until that ONE doctor finally came around and found out just what was wrong with them; Even though so many other doctors before them had stated time and time again after numerous tests that nothing is wrong.
It all goes back to the saying that I've heard being said so many times over and over again, and that is that you MUST be your own advocate in a situation like this one. If you know that there is something causing you thus much pain, then keep looking. The only bad thing is with this, is that this is what has been going on with me as well. Not the same symptoms, BUT the same scenario where so many doctors continue to do X-Rays and MRI's and other scans and always come back to me telling me that the only evidence of pain they can see from the scans and/or tests that they have ran is a cyst on the back of my knee, which has caused back pain for me in trying to compensate with my walking, etc. The bad thing that comes with this, is that I try over and over again to be my own advocate on all of this, so I keep going to so many doctors to try and get an answer/solution to my problem... But then people and doctors within the medical field view me taking these actions as "doctor shopping" and that isn't my intentions what so ever. Doctors can be too judgemental at times, and for that I am sorry because I know how much it must have ticked you off when that doctor said what they did to you today.
Did it ever cross your mind to complain to the office manager there about the ways in which he spoke to you and handled the situation with you today? That is just what I did when my PCP talked to me the way that he did. UGH!
what a nightmare sounds like he doesnt have a clue, can you go and get a second opinion, why sould you take meth, its highly addictive used to get of heroin, even then people get addicted to that or even go back to drugs, i know im no help, what about talking to the doctors on here and go into detail, i wish you well tho babes ant try and stay off **** if you can help it, good luck honey xxx
My feet, knees and hand sting/burn and ache all the time. I've had every test known to man run on me and they all come back saying I'm fine. I've tried almost every anti-depressant along with Lyrica and am not able to handle the side effects. It is so frustrating. I am currently taking 20-30 mgs of Norco per day and there are days where 100mgs would not help...I just suffer through.
I realize this may not be the forum for this type of thing...it is just where I landed first.
I realize this may not be the forum for this type of thing...it is just where I landed first.
Methadone is actually the therapy of choice for long term use of narcotics. Methadone does no to little damage to other organs compared to other analgesics and develops tolerance less rapidly while huge doses are even tolerated by non-naive opiate patients. May want a class or two in medical school before dissing a new Doc trying to get to your problem too quickly.
And I am an end stge liver patient - been fighting this one for 13 years....I am familiar with pain. It never killed me in Vietnam and it wont kill me tonight, narotics have almost killed me many timea right down to life support and ventilators........ The Doc has your health and best interests at heart. Check out capsaicin from Walgreens, Heat and Ice (think heating pad) alternating, a benadryl and and ibuprophen before sleep........ also a cup of mint tea (celestial seasonings Sleepytime..) - you can do this......just chill and try some breathing exercises....
And I am an end stge liver patient - been fighting this one for 13 years....I am familiar with pain. It never killed me in Vietnam and it wont kill me tonight, narotics have almost killed me many timea right down to life support and ventilators........ The Doc has your health and best interests at heart. Check out capsaicin from Walgreens, Heat and Ice (think heating pad) alternating, a benadryl and and ibuprophen before sleep........ also a cup of mint tea (celestial seasonings Sleepytime..) - you can do this......just chill and try some breathing exercises....
What is the issue you're having right now? Your back, knee, shoulder....? That sort of thing.
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