Hey girl, just remember when you ask God for forgiveness he will immediately forgive you and you are starting all over with a clean slate sort of speak. I used to have so many issues with Not being able to forgive myself, but if God can forgive us then we need to be able to also. He lets that go and we need to also. I wish i could explain this better, like the person that explained it to me. Just pray from your heart and He will always listen. I will be praying for you. God can help you....all you have to do is ask. Hang in there girl. Please pm me if you ever need to vent or want to chat. You are doing great!
Day 5 it is then Congrats !! You come first.. Your sobriety is the most important.. my heart goes out to your friend it really does but the bottom line is You have to take care of you first.. You are doing the right thing and I'm sorry you are crying.. our emotions really come flooding out when we quit our doc. keep reaching out to the forum we are all here to support you.. maybe your husband can look at the forum and read what you are going through.. the aa na suggestion were good as you would be surrounding yourself with like minded people. If you can not help your friend That is ok You need to help yourself first.. suggest he catch a meeting.. not the same as one you would as you need to focus on You.. Your so worth the effort to get clean.. life looks and feels different clean.. keep moving forward.. warm hugs
I can't believe you had that kind of strength .. that took more courage than I think I ever had.. you were that close and walked away ... GOOD FOR YOU MY FRIEND!!!!!
I wish you all the best and when I feel that God has forgiven me for what I've done and I feel I am able to pray again for Him to hear me ... I will be praying for you also... best of wishes.. and thanks again.. your story was inspiring to me... :*)
Thank you SO MUCH, I needed to hear that right now.. you have no idea... and to answer your question .. except for a minor slip .. I am on day 5 today... I have to fogive my slip or else I'm back on like day 2 and mentally that stinks.. so I am telling myself I am still on day 5 cause mentally it gives me more hope.. I know that sounds crazy but true.. anyway read my last post to 10356 just above this one and maybe you can understand my situation a little better.. don't get me wrong .. I am elated that my friend finally said he was done and I did tell him I would help him through this because he is my friend.. he says he can't quit without my help so what choice do I have...
Please stay strong and hang on. I have almost 15 days under my belt with a minor relapse in between. I actually took myself to a pain clinic yesterday and signed in and sat there for 15 minutes debating on what i was going to do. Well, i walked right out of that place and i am clean today and happy to be so. If i can do this, you can too. I will be praying for you today! I know what you are going through! We can both do this. You have to!!! Hugs to you. Jeri
Sorry,,, I was trying to respond to your comment and got knocked offline.. lol... and you are right.. I have many many... etc.. reasons to stop and that's what I keep trying to tell myself, but it is soooooo hard... one of my biggest problems is that everyone expects me to be superwoman... and on the pill I WAS superwoman, now I feel like crapppppp... support from hubby and my friend would be REAL nice but as we all know they say women are stronger than men so they both expect me to be the supportive one and help them.. but dog gonnit I am still human too and sometimes I need encouragement and someone to tell me I'm doing the right thing. or that I'm doing good and kinda keep me goin ya know.. I'm crying right now.. thinking I am totally alone in the world.. I mean other than my hubby and friend no one even knows I have this problem and if I can help it no one will... so I am alone in my fight and it's scary to think I will have to do this alone cause right now I don't feel too strong.. my mind is just idling on those stupid things and I want it to STOPPPPP!!!!!!!!!
hey girlee....well I dont know where your at with your detox or how many days if any you have clean but I do know it can be done it just takes some will power a lot of help from God and the perseverance to see it thew...you just got to be ok without beng ok for a wile ...your not going to feel like yourself and you just have to accept that...this to shall pass with time ....you need to do this for yourself not someone else and its eazy to get rapped up in someone else's detox wile your still in yours...I incorage you to keep moving forward no mater how it feels you will get better as time goes by...prayer
goes along way and will help a lot at lest it did for me...you may want to check into some aftercare like N/A it helps a lot with some people to support what your doing
and it will give you a foundation to build your sobriety on detoxing is only the first step its a life long war we fight...so keep on keeping on fight the good fight in the end it is so so worth it......good luck and God bless....Gnarly
You need to take Fail out of your vocabulary and replace it with I will Succeed !! You need to go into this as if you are going to war.. you are in a war on your addiction.. go in with the attitude that failure is not a option or you die.. You Can Do This.. Your friend can also do this.. get a positive attitude going it is infectious.. it sounds like you have many reasons to beat your war So Please hang in there and fight for them and yourself... Freedom from drugs is awesome it really is.. servitude to active addiction is that servitude.. You can do this !! lesa
Thank you so much for your response... I am typing right now and crying my eyes out.. :*( I guess I really need to be stronger myself before I can help him but then again I can't just leave him hangin' either... he needs the help too.. he takes waaayyy more than I ever have and for alot longer time too... so part of me feels like I need to be the stronger one in this battlle... but I am a female and we all know how that is ... lol... I need the encouragement to keep me built up or I WILL fail... but trying my hardest not too.. for me .. my family and my friend.. just need some people to lift me up and especially PRAY PRAY PRAY... if you guys just help get me through today maybe tomorrow will be better thanks for listening to all my ranting... lol
Hi honey,
Stick in. Dont give in, Its hard but not impossible. Keep posting type till your fingers fall of if you need to. We are always here and you are not alone. You can do this. I am not going to wish you luck cos you dont need it. Your doing it. So keep doing it. You say I know that this might sound selfish but why dont you and your friend be accountable for yourselves. You already have enough pressure.
you've came this far go for it........................................