Can i take 2mg sub for the next 4 or 5 days to help me get through my vicodin wd?

[vikeaddict]

I haven't posted since I found out I was pregnant in 2008 and I was on suboxone for a really bad vike addiction!! This has been a very long addiction for me...sad to say over 10 years : ( and here I am again!! I started taking vikes again not that long after my daughter was born as I was no longer with her father who was torturing me & we went to court for months for support & custody! Which I got full custody & some support but he hasn't been there he's a deadbeat who always tried to give me pills... anyway my life hasn't been easy but I do it all for my daughter! So we live in my parents house which is really hard and stressful and haven't been able to go back to work as my daughters father won't help with daycare cost n he is court ordered!!! Ok long story short I have been taking massive amounts of vicodin again and yesterday was my last day I tried to help with the help of my Bf but as the drug addict I am they didn't go so well!! So wennt into wd early last night n didn't sleep much and my poor daughter wants to play and I feel like crap to say the least!! I have on 8mg of sub can I split it and take 2mg for a day or to? My boyfriend who is my rock had a drug problem to and has been clean over a year and believes I should just suck it up...u know tough love!! He's probably right but I'm going out of my mind n I just yelled at my kid n that's not me!! What to do I know most people will say the same...cold turkey!! Please can anyone help me I have no access to anymore subs so I'm not worried about getting addicted but what will it do??? I'm desperate as I want MY life back!! My parents don't know and I would like to keep it that way and of course everyone is home today until Monday so I can't hide and fight this!! I know I sound weak but I really want this!! I could get vikes now but I really don't want them anymore!!! Sorry for the rambling but I'm so anxious from w/d!.! I cut up sub 2mg n I'm ready to take it??? Any suggestions?

[tired_of_oxy]

I really feel for you. I had to put off my detox until I could get a family member to come help because I was freaking on my kids and like you said, not in our natures but when those wds hit they turn us into people we aren't. Since your boyfriend is there can't he and your parents watch your little one while you go through this? You definitely need help with your child in order to get through this. I have detoxed a few times too and each time had someone come and help with the kids. It;s just sooo hard to take care of a little one when your going through that. I hope you figure something out. I ended up going on sub recently and will be on it until, with the help of NA and my therapist, I get my head in the right place and learn some coping skills for when I do come off. Sounds like you've been down this road too. You sound very motivated to get off I think if you can get help with your daughter don't even bother with the sub, just do it. But if you can't get help then maybe 2 mgs in the morning might help you at least be able to function enough to care for your daughter. But I really hope you get the support you need and can just kick this. Aftercare is the most important thing though. Make sure you do it because as you already know getting clean is one thing but staying that way is another. You need as much support as you can get. Let us know if your able to get help with your child. It might be a good time to come clean with your parents and let them know that you have a problem but want to do something about it but need help. I think most of us who've been too scared to tell our loved ones are pleasantly surprised when we tell them and they are more then happy to try and help. Fessing up will bring you closer and also they will be able to help you with your child so you can get through this. Praying for you and hope you can get help and get off the pills.

[vikeaddict]

Thank you sooo much for your time and advice its always greatly appreciated!! Well I have fought this fight before but I have never done it cold turkey let alone with a 2 year old!! My boyfriend is against me taking the sub says I'm just prologing the pain but I have only one 8mg sub which I have spit into fours and I was really hoping that would help me get through it alittle easier!! I'm so confused and don't know what to do but all I really want is to be pill free!! So thank you for your help and if anyone else has had any other experiences and would like to share I would love to here!! What happened to the previous post about the person who did it for a couple of days and said it helped? That's weird unless she deleted it cause I can't imagine the forum doing that but it has been a couple of years since I posted!! I appreciate all advice good or bad

[jwmx6]

If u do decide to take the sub do not stay on it for a long period of time and 2mg may be to high I dnt know not a Dr u could suck it up and try and just quit taking the sub is just delaying if your ready to quit keep posting support is here  

[gnarly_1]

HI.....I really dont think one sub is going to do any more the put the  withdrawals off not get you around them......we have had a member recently go to a 5 day detox they used sub to keep her comfortable she came out all happy go lucky and the 2 days later went into full blow withdrawals witch caught her by suprize.....your best bet is to just go threw it C/T....its only 4 day of He11 but when its over you will no longer be chained to a pill bottle it sound like you have done this b/4 so remember to force the fluids gatoaid and apple juice are good choices
hot baths will releave a lot of the symptoms...and try to not let fear into the equation its always wost in our minds then it turns out to be...the best thing you can do is go into this with a positive attitude and dont forget to tell yourself that it is only temporary you have done this b/4 you can do it again....keep reading the posts and post often for support good luck and God bless......Gnarly