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[WantToTakeMyLifeBack]

I posted about coming off percocets a few days back, I only made it to a little past 24 hours and decided I could not do cold turkey without tapering down to a lesser dose. Coming off of 120-150mg is hard. So I am going to do a quick week taper I made for myself, just to get down to only 30mgs and then jump. I know it will not be a cake walk but I want this so bad and I want it to be successful. In the past it was next to impossible to taper for me but I have the will power this time and I have already got down to 60mgs and made it thru. I am sorry if I let anyone down before with my last post but please know I am trying my hardest to get off of these. My DOC is perc 30mgs, and it has not been an easy road as I started them recreationally and have spent a ton of money and time with these little devils. I will do it this time, I have to do it this time for me and for my husband. I have already started the whey protein, multi vitamins, hydrating, and calcium/magnesium/zinc supplements. Any support would be greatly appreciated as I go thru this week and especially when I make them jump. Thanks in advance for any support that can be offered, I know it will not be an easy week. It's the only way to do this for me, I can not take time off work.

[snakejones]

Hi there---most of the time in this life there is more than one right way to do something. Tapering is a very fine way to quit a drug if you just can't stomach CT, but it takes discipline to keep your hand out of the cookie jar! If you can't deal with that, then someone must hold and dispense your pills for you. One of the easiest ways is to do it slowly, providing you have enough pills for a lengthy taper.That worked for me with Ultram five years ago. The most important thing is to be serious about it, and to know yourself well enough to pick a method that has a high likelihood of success. I wish you a successful taper!

[gnarly_1]

HI coming off 120 to 150 in a weeks time is going to be ruff it takes 3 days for your body to adjust to a different dose you need to slow this whole thing down to something relisitic im not trying to throw a wrencsh in the fan but only want you to succeed slow and sready wins at tapering give your self some time it will help a lot good luck and God bless......Gnarly

[SuperRickHenry]

I got medical help to taper. I am still feeling ups and downs on day almost 6 but keep busy and I think taper with Dr. help.  Otherwise and beside your choice God Bless You... You Can and Will Prevail........

[LeaAnn807]

Hey, don't be worried about letting us down.  Having a plan will help you.  You just have to stick to it 100% no matter what!  Stopping cold turkey is tough, and that's essentially what you'll be doing once you get down to 30 mg.  It will still not be easy!!!  You just have to have your mind really made up to do it and be ready.  During this week, start taking vitamins and minerals and forcing water.  Get some exercise.  Get prepared with your detox "kit" with all the things you'll need over the weekend.  That will help, because you may not feel like getting out too much once you jump!

[bama88]

I know exactly how you feel. i used to argue with myself. i even got to the point of trying to justify taking just one. i almost surrendered to the pills. i did. i was so used to functioning on oxies. and loved rhetorically buzz. i was at 240 320 msg a day. i ran out of a months worth in less than ten days. yes my husband indulged too. and some days i took four sixty oxies playing up my pain.

The first two dsyz was so scary and i ws so sick. sweating shAking pukimg pooping ....i had  fever i wanted to die. and the fact that knowing a pill can take it away is a powerful evil obsessive thought. and all the other times we choose the medicine will take away the torture....

And the disease will posesse you...take over every part of your life.

But the first two days i detoxed....i was so mad inside at myself. i felt tremendous  anger shame stupidity. a looser etc. and i knew i knew right then i could never ever manage my pills. i was an addict. i had two choices to make...both was to surrender. to surrender to pills....or recovery and health.

I reminded myself i just lost my car. and still have strong feelings. it helps keep me clean.

I can go on and on as to what will happen if we continue to use...i am the same as you..

I had an appointment to my pain management ddoctor. and at first i could think of nothing but that appointment for more poison....as the day drew closer and i was three weeks deep....i didn't see the point of more pills. i could finally admit my addiction.and how it was ruling and destroying my life .......i i got scared that rhetorically pills would continue to destroy my life and health. if i continued to use...i would loose my car job kids and possibly my freedom. or life. or my doctor would just stop prescribing to me .....so there was and is no positive reason to stay on them....isn't your life worth two weeks of sick?? and even up to ninety days to feel renewed. alive and positive and much more. what value to you value you??

I say this with kindness friendship love and prayers. i say this to share with you you aren't alone. i am willing to extend my hand to help stand ya up. cheer you on. and a shoulder to cry on. or pass on my personal experience about detox.

I used to detox once a month for two years. saying it will do me good. and then i never detoxed or withdraws. i spent All my money and extra time scoring pills....

I jumped cold three weeks ago if of 320 mgs ...so it can be done. hope you want this. your so worth it. and owe it to your self....please please quit.

[Teri9498]

   Hi, just wanted to say whatever works for u, be it cold turkey or tapering, the main thing is to be off the pills!  I agree wilt n8tiv-ndn, it will probably be the hardest thing u will do, but the biggest accomplishment as well.......sending u lots of support!  Teri  :)

[WantToTakeMyLifeBack]

Thank you for your kind words, I really appreciate them. Right now my taper is giving me some piece of mind, I know Friday when I make the jump it's not going to be easy but I can not take the time off of work right now to make the jump. I read your post about Uncle Bens rice, it made me smile! I am going to have to pick some up! Congrats on your 7 days! How are you feeling physically? Mentally?

[n8tiv_ndn]

Hey WantTo....I want to offer you some words of encouragement on this journey.....CT or tapering both have there challenges as I am sure you know....but even as this is one of the hardest things you may ever have to do in your life it is most assuredly one of the most important as well....as many here have told me....Stay in the Moment....don't let yourself be overwhelmed by the physical and mental struggle.....I personally say to you don't fight it....go with it and try to be as calm as you can be....look beyond the pain and focus on your victory....breathe and enjoy the sobriety between the breaths and find whatever it is that relaxes you and stick with it .....I'm on day 7 of my struggle and it is already so much better than it was....YOU CAN DO THIS...........peace my friend

n8tiv_ndn