Hi Moly! Congrats on the 30 days! You've been amazing around here...always lifting spirits and cracking jokes. I've really enjoyed getting to know you and I have no doubt that you have a great future ahead of you. Take it day-by-day and continue to be patient. Emotions will begin to even out and the right lady will come along when the time is right (I like to think that the big man upstairs handles all that for us :). Thanks for being so awesome and supportive. You're great! :)
Oh - just wanted to add that instant gratification is something I have thought long and hard about and the reason why I stopped eating like I wanted... the last 2 years om trams have been an endless row of instant gratifications and I actually needed to re-learn that not every choice you make has to be the most appealing - somethings NEEDS to be done even though you may not feel like it... my exercise for example..
TY all for your great responses - At the moment my relationship to my ex is on a "maybe it will happen again" pause and since I still have strong feelings for her I'm letting it play out taking things very slowly... If I didn't have her in my life as a potential I would definitely not be looking right now as I totally agree with you - I have to find my own stabil self before even looking in that direction...
Congrats on 30 days!! That is a great accomplishment. Live in the day, the moment etc. You are early in your recovery and the best is yet to come. Enjoy each step you take, learn from the lessons and continue to put one foot in front of the other. Recovery is a slow process and needs to be. We need to learn to live again clean. Life is what we make it. You are in the drivers seat so buckle up and enjoy the ride. As for a relationship....i would get more comfortable in your own skin. Take this time for you now, get to know you. When the time is right it will happen.
It gets better, and worse, and better its the better we look forward too! But thats just life as an addict or not good days and bad...I take the bad and make the best of it and survive, and the GOOD I roll with!! Looking forward to the GREAT one day :)
I am so PROUD of you!!
Great post Bjorn!! and i feel ya on what you said at the end....i too, sometimes think..."is this as good as it gets?" but even if it is for me....i'll take it anyday over using....congrats again on those 30 days!! way to rock it my friend! you will meet that special someone when you least expect it :)
HolyMoly I'm so very proud of you and let me just say any girl would be lucky to have you. If it doesn't work out it will be her loss and just KNOW that God has it all planned out before you even get there so NO WORRIES my brother! You are amazing and I'm so glad your here! Congrats on the big 30 my sweet,amazing, Danish partner in crime!
Its actually very normal to have lows in life. When were using we dont really experience them like "normal" people so when we get clean and they hit us were like...whoa! Understanding that its normal to have moments of anxiety, depression, etc are big....after time I started to be able to deal with those feelings a lot easier because I was used to them..they weren't foreign. You will continue to feel better....just stay the course.
Thats cool you want to find that special someone...I respect that. Im just going to throw my 2 cents in though and say that you should just be concentrating on your recovery right now. As long as you continue to better yourself...you will eventually meet the right girl for you. You dont need to throw in a relationship to the already emotional roller coaster thats accompanies the first part of recovery.
Your doing good and I hope you continue to move forward.
Always,
ABN