The dr. and counsler at my rehab treatment place called me the miracle man today. They cant believe that I went into my sub appt. 11 days clean and still havent used thus going through the course C/T. It feels good just to be thought of as being tough but we all know its not about that. We all know how hard this is, and no one is immune to the w/ds or paws. We talked about some things in grp wed. night about how normal PAWS is and the only thing that you should be concerned about is if your not going through any of the symptons. It will give you a false confidence that maybe your problem wasnt that serious or maybe it wasnt a problem at all. One main thing we have to watch out for is when your doing really really well dont forget how bad the problem was that way not if but when your bad days or cravings come they dont catch you off guard. We dont ever want to go back to square one or worse fall back into the drug/alcohol life. Because its not a life at all just a series of phone calls, hiding, lieing, and deception to the ones we love and ourselves. Be strong, be clean, and enjoy your good days because they turn into weeks. But dont forget you will also have bad days and horrible cravings. Put your mind over your emotions, dont act on your emotions think what your doing before you do it and what the consiquences will be for said actions. The easy part is getting clean the hard part is staying clean. Any person with some imodium and tylenol can get through withdrawls but it takes strength to live clean. Im no one to preach i probably have the willpower of a 4yr old child in a candy store. But this is what ive chosen to do and this is what I will sacrifice to achieve. There are no victims here, dont ever think theres no hope for you. If theres a desire theres a recovery. I love all of you even if you are strangers to me, but were all in the same boat so im here to do my part to make sure we dont sink.