The three of us began over 100 days ago

[BraneGame]

Chig, qpatty, and my self began this journey of sobriety in March. Like many of you who are just starting out, we found each other and have held on tight. During the first two months we all posted daily if not more. Our withdrawal symptoms seemed normal and we kept the course each of us in our own way using the advice of the long timers as we  are so grateful to learn from their experience. However, we soon found ourselves no longer posting as much as we seem to be following a different path than most everyone. We found ourselves PM each other rather than posting here. It is a tough place to be. Reading all the posts of the newer members and how they seem to feel better each day is bitter sweet. I know for me, I don't post publicly because I do not want to scare anyone who is suffering min. by min. or hour to hour. I remember how long and painful the days are in the early stages of withdrawal. TIME the four letter word that feels just as terrifying as the swear. Do we post our fears, and our continued and often debilitating symptoms of this most trying fight of our lives? PAWS!!!! No one seems to post about it. But it is real and we three have it. Maybe there are others out there who have it too. When we PM each other we share our symptoms because we don't know if we are still normal or if this is it for us. Life.....we are between 40 and 60 years old. Is this what it feels like to get older? Our bodies aged while we weren't looking because of the pills. OR, will we one day stop feeling the anxiety, weakness, brain buzzing, insomnia, shaking, lack of energy, massive depression, and physical pain?

I am thankful for my sober buddies Chig and qpatty. Without them and a few others we would be lost. I hope I have not discouraged anyone. That is so not what I wanted to do by posting this. This post is about our journey that may or may not be how others will experience it. I just feel lost and am reaching out.

[qpatty]

I lost my mother to alcohol overdose 18 years ago. I was in my early thirties. I have literally felt like an orphan every day of my life since then. Girl, you gotta win this battle for your boys.

And thank you for the sleep last night, lol. Tonight is your turn.

[charlie_coldturkey_tn2015]

Y'all are possibly crazier than me , tina6444, and nomore2. I love it. Stay strong and stay together. This journey is not meant to be made alone. Love the spirit and we look forward to hitting that 100 day mark ourselves.

[chig1130]

Im thinking about going outside and HOWLING WITH THE COYOTES FOR A BIT MAYBE THAT WILL HELP ME SLEEP, I WILL LET YA KNOW, OF COURSE, IT WILL BE DAYLIGHT WHEN IM BACK IN THE HOUSE, BUT I WILL SEE HOW THAT WORKS FOR BURNING OFF ANXIETY. SO STAY TUNED!!!!

[chig1130]

bahhahahahaha  lets see bout hmmmmm, good question. lol

[BraneGame]

chig you know me so well. When will it be TIME to sleep? LOL

[chig1130]

Your last 2 sentences answer your question about winning the battle, my dear friend. You have your friends right here with you any time you need us.
Dear God, Im so sorry about your sister, more than words can express. Please know the Good Lord will see you thru this, my friend.

One more thing, yes your emotions about life will be all over the place. It ill calm down for you in time.

Please don't be mad cause I said that word TIME.

xoxoxo