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Time to get real

i am finally going to admit it.  I have never said it before, I know i am, but I have fought the label.  So here I go-  I am a addict.  Yes a addict.  I started taking meds for my back, very legit pain, but found I like the feeling a little too much.  I upped my dose, in a few case cut the fentanyl patch so I could suck it.  I even took some from my sister and mom when I was low.  God d@#& was that hard to say.  I guess this it the start of my real recovery.  10 days and counting.  

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Chrissy-  I totally understand.  Right now my back is hurting.  Enough that I am very tempted.  I was wondering-- Does pain escalate doing periods of heavy craving?.  I am wondering if it could be pain due to the addiction.  basically my body telling me to use because I have pain- so its ok.
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i know how you feel im finally admitting im an addcit and just like you i have real pain but as the years went by my body became use to the meds and i had to take more i was always wondering why do i feel so bad no energy had to force my self to move to go to work and now from finding this site i see it was the pills!!! now i need to find a better way to control my pain without no opaites!!
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Step 1, in my opinion, was the most difficult.

I'm not going to say it was all downhill from there or anything, but after admitting that I was an addict and that I was powerless, the rest came somewhat easily.

Again, I'm not saying it was all easy after admitting, but it for sure made things EASIER.

Congratulations on 10-days Brother!
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