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Today is day 58!
Well, I am very happy about 58 days...but I have a question, I still feel really really emotional, and I find that I am getting irritable with my 22 month old really easily (this could be because of PMS also, but I felt it a little before that time), and I don't want to, then I end up feeling really bad and looking into his face and wrapping him in my arms makes me cry. I'm crying right now just thinking about it. I try to just take a breath and not be so "snappy" with him, I mean, he's just a baby, and none of this is fault, he is the reason I am doing this, as well as for myself...Is it normal to start feeling all this over again this far in?
Congrats on your clean time so far..Ya!!!
Yes, you can still feel off balance emotionally as it does take time for the Brain Chemistry's to balance out. For me it took me almost 6months of physical and around 2yrs to feel my Brain finally balance back a bit. I was told by a specialist that it cold take up to 2yrs when we have used for a Long Time. Also, I had all those heart breaking issues happen and that had thrown my Emotions back a bit, during all that time of Grieving over and over and over.
Just keep up the Faith and always Forgive yourself as you do others.
Step back and take some deep breaths or walk away for a bit when you feel off balance, emotionally. Stay in the Day and YOU will get better & better. 58 days is still early...sorry!
Hang in.
The Lord will get you through all of this.
Vickie
Yes, you can still feel off balance emotionally as it does take time for the Brain Chemistry's to balance out. For me it took me almost 6months of physical and around 2yrs to feel my Brain finally balance back a bit. I was told by a specialist that it cold take up to 2yrs when we have used for a Long Time. Also, I had all those heart breaking issues happen and that had thrown my Emotions back a bit, during all that time of Grieving over and over and over.
Just keep up the Faith and always Forgive yourself as you do others.
Step back and take some deep breaths or walk away for a bit when you feel off balance, emotionally. Stay in the Day and YOU will get better & better. 58 days is still early...sorry!
Hang in.
The Lord will get you through all of this.
Vickie
Congratulations. You are a success and don't let anything get into your way for achieving more and more success that you deserve. Take every day as a new life and make the best use of your time to become the beauty you always wanted to be and more. Life is a journey with ups and downs, make sure you are strongest in the downs and humble in the ups, and rest is you are moving forward!
well sjs, it sounds like you are really doing very well. all of what you describe is so normal, as everyone said it is still so early on. it will probably be like that for a while, you will feel really good and turn a corner and then have a bad day or two. moods swings during the day are very common too, as i recall. just be honest at 12 step. your problems are your problems, not anyone else's, and they are just as valid as anyone's. feelings are not right or wrong, no one should judge you. in terms of your baby I think that being a mom is the hardest job in the world. i don't know for sure but it sure seems like it. congrats on 58 days, or 59 when you read this maybe. great job!!!!
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Congrats on 58 days clean. Post acute withdrawal symptoms (PAWS) I was always taught can last anywhere from 6-24 months from your last use. Paws are psychological withdrawal...mood swings, impulsiveness, insomnia, emotional numbness or overreaction amongst others. Your baby won't remember this once he's bigger so just keep reminding yourself your doing the best you can right now for everyone. I'm sure your a good mother and it's probably not quite as bad as it feels We are our own worst critics. This too shall pass. Keep up the good work.
Last night I went home and just held my baby, I looked into his sweet little eyes and just burried my face in his hair and watched a whole movie with him like that, and it made me feel so good to feel that way and know that he still loves me more than anything, even though I am "short" with him sometimes, and that I would do anything for him! I know it's still early, and I don't expect any miracles, I just felt soooo good and alive and had several weeks of feeling pre pill normal, and then WHAM!!! Total emotional basket case with no patience for anything. I'm hoping when I'm done with my monthly I will balance out a little bit, haven't had to feel the "symptoms" of a period for some time now due to being numbed by norco! I have gone to some meetings now, I haven't said anything yet, I feel dumb being there for some reason, like my problems are just not as big or complex as most people that are attending where I live and due to being such a small town, that is the only NA/AA group or recovery program available at the time. I was pushing through just fine, and haven't even craved a pill, and my body feels amazing physically, but inside I feel like I'm going to completely fall apart!!
Congrats Im 42 days clean I have my cry me days doesn't feel good to be clean my back is cleaning me but I'm pushing through it
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