Too depressed to continue detox for now?

Question

I am feeling very lonely and depressed today. I can't get anything done...too depressed. I was fine until I read a post on FB from a friend who is feeling depressed and now I'M depressed. Plus, the Duck I have in for rehab. needs to see the vet and he is closed today. I don't have a car either and the last time I took an animal to my vet it cost over $300 w/ the Uber cab rides! Ducky just looks so sad and he cannot walk. He looks so sad and making me sad. I wish my BF wasn't working so I could have some company even though my pain med. woes get on his nerves. The only place I can get support and friendship is here.
 My laptop is acting up so badly that I am sending it off for repair soon so I won't be able to even come on here. :-(  Please.....can somebody just talk to me?

dominosarah · Answer

Hi and welcome~

If you look at the top of this page you will see a box to Post a Question.  Click on that and you can copy and paste what you wrote above.  That way you will have your own thread and will get the help we can give you.

inovermyhead48 · Answer

I need help. I have been on hydrocodene for 10 years for pain mananagement. I need help. I want to get off of them. I am weaning off. I went from 8 to 6 10/325's over last 5 weeks. I am afraid of what I have been reading. I already suffer from depression, and do have real pain. the drug does not give me a "high" at all. I have been on the same dose for 3 years. Will that help me at all? I have to keep this private. I have 2 kids ages 16 and 12. My husband and I did not know how bad these drugs were. My doctor still thinks I am taking the 8 dose. Please help me, I can't afford to go to rehab, or get help professionally. My plan is to slowly taper off, and then completely go off in the summer when I can afford the time. Will I have more depression? I can't handle that. Does dosing down help my body get adjusted at all or is it too late?

dominosarah · Answer

That post is here on our forum now.

VICourageous · Answer

When you get your computer back up, I sure hope you read my reply to you over in the Pain Management. I do wish you all the BEST!!

spider6 · Answer

Please don't lump me together with "actual addicts".......please....so offensive......let's call you a factual addict ............it's a fact.....addicts come in all sizes colours, status, religions, vocations and even those of the intellectually challenged.

Danny111 · Answer

Being old doesn't make pain worse and taking pain killers won't make your duck happier.

Being on opiates for a long time changes our brain chemistry.  We feel more pain than we do once we're off them and we think of them any time we're stressed(like when our duck is sad).

dominosarah · Answer

I am proud to be lumped together with my fellow recovering addicts.  All we did was give you suggestions on how to get thru the mind games.  We also know how quickly these meds can turn on someone.  

All the best~

evil379 · Answer

A lot of us, myself included are pain management patients. I had trouble with the short term med they gave me, but when I was put on a longer acting med I never took more than prescribed, I actually took less, sometimes forgetting to take it at all. Like you I decided one day to stop it. Even if you never "abuse" your med, you're brain still becomes used to it and stops producing chemicals because the pills are supplementing them. It may not seem possible now, but my pain level actually went down once the meds were completely out of my system. Do I still have days with pain? Yes, but it's surprisingly more manageable. I know it's hard and that you're trying. We're all just trying to walk you thru it. The info everyone gave was a huge benefit to me and hopefully will be to you as well

Danny111 · Answer

I can't say it any better than the last two posters.  We all understand the things you're feeling because we were there.  The fact is that there will always be reasons that your brain can come up with to use.  You have to push those thoughts aside long enough to get healthy.  Do what dominosarah suggests, take a hike, a hot bath, go for a drive and crank your music, make yourself busy.

dominosarah · Answer

We all do understand what you are going thru.  We also know what an addict brain can do and it is playing hell on you today.  None of what you listed is a reason to stop your detox.  Get yourself busy, turn on some music, take a warm bath, stay off FB, go outside and get some fresh air.  What day are you on?  Do you still have pills around?

kyle505 · Answer

We all know what you're going through, but, it also sounds like your addict brain is looking for any reason to stop detox. A duck - no car - a depressed friend - no car...Sorry, but none of those is a valid reason to stop getting clean. Don't give in. If you do, you'll be right back to square one. Take a look at how silly the reasons for stopping detox are, compared to your mental and physical health. Don't get me wrong - I understand. I stopped a taper and started full blown using meds because I wanted to mow my lawn but the mower had no gas - the world was coming to an end. Good luck; you know what you need to do. K

VICourageous · Answer

Are you still around?
It has been over 2 hours.

evil379 · Answer

The mental is harder than the physical. What are you doing to keep your mind occupied? Book? Movie? Also have you tried to get up an move around? As hard as it was, walking actually helped me with the pains, and fatigue of withdrawal