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Trying to get through

I am new to this, but I need some support.  Mother of 4 and 2 grandchildren.  Was on 15 mg percocets 3 or 4 times a day for almost 2 years.  I am on day 11 c/t. I have always been a strong person, because everybody relies on me for everything.  I have no desire to go back, but I am having such a hard time with life in general.  I still have horrible anxiety and I drink green tea and take vitamins, and pray but everyday is getting better!  Does it get better?????Sometimes I just want to cry.  I just can't because nobody knows anything...I feel so stupid being a woman at my age 40 something having this problem.  Things don't look the same anymore and I just want to feel normal.  The first week was horrible, I just wanted to die, but now I just want the anxiety to go away!!Everybody needs me, and they are all wondering why I am not calling and coming over and being my usual self.  Please any support would be welcoming!!!
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Thanks to all, I know I have to learn to say no, and I am going to try!!!!  AZKathy, at day 7 I thought I was going to die, but take it from me it does get better!!!  Just keep thinking positive!  Take one day at a time and be thankful for that next hour that goes by...Try some Green Tea with ginseng and lemon and honey...It works wonders.  We are going to get our lives back and live a very full and wonderful life!!!!  If you need to talk I am here, I will check this quite often, because it helps me to know I am not alone, and neither are you!
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1337425 tn?1278173987
You're doing great sherbear, I hope I do as well.  I'm in my 7th days of w/d from 70 mg oxycontin 3x a day and 40 mg of percocet a day.  I'm still in withdrawals, wondering if they'll ever end.

Congratulations on your progress - you're a fantastic lady!
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617347 tn?1331293081
hey, you'd better tell about how you are doing, eh :) ...and you know something ? we don't need being SUPERWOMEN..so relax cause you won't be one any more, it's much better being normal with faults and so on, just accept it and relax yourself, not everybody has to rely on you, make them understand this but you has to accept it before...keep walking.
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Thank you for your kind words of encouragement.  It means a lot.  I started taking the percocet lower dose for kidney stones and then it just escalated from there with back pain and then started taking them because I felt like they made me super woman lol.  I have been taking walks, listening to music and getting out even if I don't want to, it seems to help.  I know that better days are ahead and I am going to take it one day at a time.  Thank you to all and I will check in periodically and let you know how things are!
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Hi!  I'm glad you posted.  You will get a lot of support here.  What you are feeling is normal for 11 days out.  If you feel too bad, talk to your doctor.  They can prescribe medication that isn't habit forming that might help you!  

Were you taking the meds for pain or just to get high?  

You can do this!  Congrats on 11 days!

Lea Ann
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Good afternoon,The only shame is in not doing anything. I was on 120mg twice daily of oxycontin,I never abused it. My Dr. for some reason wants me off the drugs. Fine w/me. I am being tapered of at the rate of 10 mg every 2 weeks. Been going down for 2 months now. the withdrawls are pretty bad at night,I also  have severe symptoms of menopause & am dealing with a husband thats mentally ill.
God has a plan for all of us coming off this poison,prayer really does help. God doesnt want us on the devils food.
I just discovered this place today,I am also a grandma,mother,wife of 25 years. Life will be better. Nutrition is key right now,good food thats not full of fats sugars & nitrites. You can also get relief from doing a self detox with herbs from your local health food store. Make sure you tell them why you need liver detox. Lots of pure juice sleep,& exercise & a cool bath for the sweats helps alot. Talking to people with the same problems helps too.
We can beat this together!!
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617347 tn?1331293081
hi, sherbear, welcome to the forum !!!

congrats for the step you have taken and your 11 day clean... do feel proud of you. :)

physical wd's are hard but the mental's wd's ...wow :)

it's all normal what you are going through. For sure our emotions are all messed up...one time, we feel like crying, the next we are yelling or feeling exhausted, with no motivation...i usually speak of them like waves and we must learn how  to ride them. But it gets better, of course. Depending on each individual  we go through different paces...i started suffering from  anxiety really after six months clean but it had to do with the problems i was having in my life and it was so overwhelming that i went to therapy straight ahead. The first month i felt mostly exhausted, depressed and with cravings...then when i recovered my energy and mood, it was my time for being a sentimental crying like when watching a movie...( i had never cried watching a movie since i was 15 years old )

i considered myself someone strong too but.... you know, it doesn't matter and it doesn't mind . Being addicted for years messes  up our emotions  for some time after detoxing, that's for sure and  i would advise you heartly to look for help if you can't handle your anxiety and to find tools to deal with this time of your recovery. I know from your post that nobody knows about your addiction and even if you think that you didn't take that much, i'm sure that  therapy/counselling is a must for you and it could help you a lot as it has helped me. I'm one of those people that got clean and nobody knows apart from my mother, the people  and my friends here from the forum and my therapist and today i'm 623 days clean. Of course, it would be better being open about it, having the  support face to face from other addicts ( like in na ) but i'm here and i'm clean.... :).

also you can do things to help you now in your 11th day like exercising, following a very healthy diet ( protein rich, veggies, fruits ) and  disciplined habits,  taking meditation/yoga ( it really  relaxed me a lot .. ) or taking again some hobbie you had, going for walks or  out with people, your family if you like it .

stay here and good luck :)
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736475 tn?1281259327
all the support you need is available and free. you can find at your local NA meeting. getting clean is easy compared to staying that way. remember addiction can only be arrested, never cured. aftercare is essential. addiction is a disease of isolation. if you got clean in isolation, chances are you will relapse there as well. that's not my opinion. it's a statistical fact. one addict helping another thorough NA is proving a better success rate than going it alone. best of luck and my prayers too. peace, sway
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