I am a mother, wife, daughter, sister, niece, aunt, godmother, friend and I am an addict. I have been taking pain medication since I had back surgery at age 24. I am 30 now. No one knows. I am stealth, a functioning addict. Do you know how long it has taking me to write that. I have tried to write this down for a long time, and nothing. Even saying addict under my breath pains me. So today, at 2:25:08, I am finally telling myself I am an addict. There is no other way to put it. I take between 700 and 1000mg of ultram (better known as tramadol) a day. It use to be Vicodin and Percocet here and there, but 2+ years ago my neurologist prescribed me the addiction I have today.
Are f'n kidding me? I have been reading posts on here saying not addicting, not a real addiction, no withdrawals can happen. BS. I have had withdrawals so bad that I almost killed myself. I am 30 y/o, I have a 3.5 y/o, an amazing marriage, and I wanted to die. If that is "REAL" I don't know what is.
My doctor would rather keep pushing these pills in me then help wean me off since it is so hard for your body to come off. I have a need for pain meds, I have 4 tumors on my spine, I have herniated discs, disc degeneration disease. BUT I would rather go through life in pain then on this medication. After feeling the withdrawals I know this is no joke. Anything that can cause
I am finding a detox center tonight with my husband. I can not do this on my own because I feel like I am going to harm myself because the withdrawals gets so bad. This is a LAST RESORT effort going to detox. I have sought the help of 5 doctors form neurologists to psychopharmacologists and no one wants to take on a patient with an addiction to ultram/tramadol. That in itself is saying something.
Does anyone have any personal experience in medical detox centers coming off of this medication?