Depression and anxiety can totally be detox symptoms. I am 21 days clean and I look back at my journal entries from days 6-9 and all I am talking about is how depressed, unmotivated, hopeless and angry I am. Nothing positive at all.
Give yourself a few days...these drugs are crazy,,what seems unbearable becomes doable in a week. You should def be monitored by a dr though. There is a difference btwn wanting to die bc you are miserable and having true suicidal thoughts...dont want to play around with that!! We want you here!
Your brain is screaming for dopamine. So in a way it is empty and scrambling for it. It is in a void and that void takes time to fill. Your brain is relearning how to live without the pills and getting it's lazy a s s up and running and making the right stuff for you. It was on a pill break and now has to work. It does get better....it took me about 2 weeks to feel better. In a month..it was much better. This link might help
Don't throw your clean days away until you have given yourself time to heal.
I agree w/littlebit and I just posted a comment on your journal. Give it some time.....you are on Day 2......your brain and body are wondering what you're doing to them! PROMISE it gets better.
It gets better give yourself a week.. I too thought I n needed it to function I thought it gave me the ultra social personality, energy and the zest..now I realize it just robbed me of those things and replaced them with a false sense of well being.. Get through a week and reassess..The first week I was a raving b!?$& except for at work.. You will get through. Sending positive energy and thoughts to you.
Thanks for the link, I'm going to check it out and try the stuff on the list.
I can manage all of the physical side effects, for the most part, as much as they suck. It's the depression and emptiness I can't shake. It's really weighing on me right now. Like I don't have the stamina to get up and force myself to do things i KNOW will make me better.
Thanks to everyone for the positive words, advice, and support. Every bit helps.
Thanks...I'm not near my dr. office right now but I will call on Thursday when I'm back home. I thought I'd be able to tolerate it but I guess not. What days of the detox/WD process were the worst for you? And, when did you start noticing the slightest improvement?
Thank you for your help.
I too started very positive and 10 days in I started to feel a lil defeated and depressed. I've noticed, as you probally have too, that while in withdraw feelings are very intense. When you are positive you are very positive and when depressed its hard to see any light at all. I had to actually self-talk myself out of depression or risk losing the 240 hrs, mostly sleepless, that I've put in. Try your best to keep positive and look to the days beyond the withdraw and not how much this day hurts. Time will pass and we will feel better :)
I have been clean for about 4 years, and trust me it gets better. It takes time, it took me about 3 -4 months before I was feeling normal again. One of the things that helped me significantly, was switching to a vegan diet. I was skeptical at first, but 4 years now and I am still vegan. The food you eat has a lot to do with the way you feel, and also helps stop the runs. When you are feeling depressed, the best thing to do is do what use to make you happy (video games, reading, hiking, bowling) whatever it may be, and chances are you really do not want to do it, but force yourself to do what you use to do and you will thank yourself for it after. The trick is releasing endorphins which are natural pain killers and you will temporarily forget about your depression, and over time it gets less and less. Just remind yourself that you will not let a little pill control your life.
Sky, you have gotten some great advice here, especially about your brain. The narcs really trash our brains and it takes a long time to get them healed up. Quite a bit of science has shown it can take a year to get your brain back to the best it can be. Al sorts, including key dopamine receptors, are wrecked and need time to not only function, but to get re-wired.
Each day is a step closer, and something to be positive about. Help yourself by good supplements, and a high quality diet and exercise program. Hang in there, you can make it.
Right now your brain is asking you WTF???? You are gonna make me do all the things that the pills did for me??? You mean I have to actually produce dopamine and seratonin on my own again??? Oh geez!!! It's in a total teenage freak out moment like when our parents told us to get off our lazy behinds and clean our rooms, do our chores, etc. and punishing us for not doing them. It's mad at you for taking away it's 'pleasure toy' so it didn't have to work so hard. Give it the finger and know that it will just have to pout for a few days and then it will start readjusting it's 'tude'.
Wow this response was hilarious. It put everything in to perspective in a very amusing way lol...Thanks for that. I know my brain is in shock right now and I feel bad for what I put it through. Just letting it do its thang.
How long did you take them?
Thanks for the advice and encouragement. I'm so interested in everyone's personal journeys because every story is so different but very similar too.
It's inspiring to hear others battled the same thing and made it out a better person and still thriving to move forward.
I know each and every person is so amazing. I love the advice and encouragement. I'm not really sure how/where I'd be without it!
I am looking forward to the time my brain is completely healed. It's exhausting being dependent on so many meds, I'm ready to kick ALL of them. One at a time though...thanks to this website and the awesome people, I didn't attempt two at once or at very close intervals.
I also started out very positive then it the beginning of week 2 I got so depressed. I had so much regret for the things I did before I got sober. It does get better. I finally started feeling halfway normal at month 1. Now I am 3 months clean and feel great. Every month gets better & better. NA & counseling help so much with the depression. They also help with urges which you will have for a long time. Just remember your worst day sober is better than your best day using drugs. Hope you feel better soon