"Voluntary ban" at pharmacies??

[Love_my_pills]

Am I able to ask a pharmacy ( all of them) to refuse to fill any prescriptions for me? I live in Iowa and am addicted to opiates and Adderall. Obviously, I want to make sure that I make it as difficult as possible for me to get any of them if I lose my willpower. I've been off opiates since May 21, but just ended up making matters worse with my prescribed Adderall now. If I'm able to request such a ban, any additional information on the specifics of how it might typically work would be greatly appreciated.

[akitagurl12]

you know, all these things will be much easier to deal with and fix once you get some clean time under your belt.  I would just take it a day at a time.  Your number one priority needs to be to get & learn how to stay clean.  Unless we are right in our minds, nothing else will be right.  I realize that now.  And yes, I still have some messes with people & situations I made during all that time I was high.  It takes time.  Please dont beat yourself up.  Addiction is a very complicated thing.  She is still your wife.  Just support her with whatever she needs to do at this point.  You take care of you, she takes care of herself &  this could end up making your relationship stronger.  And please remember it takes two.  I am an addict but also an enabler, so i know & live both sides of this.  

[Love_my_pills]

Thanks, Akita. I feel the same way. But moving around from one house to another and imposing on relatives just adds to mix too. Meanwhile my wife/non-wife, whatever she at this point is at home trying to repair the damage I've caused for her and hold herself together. She's still there for me anytime to talk, she's supporting me financially, but we don't have a "status." She's not filing for divorce, but she said she's lost all hope and faith in me and us. She continues to wear her ring and hasn't told anyone that she's left me, so how do you approach your best friend/wife and talk under these circumstances? Awkward and confusing. Although she hasn't abandoned me whatsoever, she keeps telling me that she can't even promise that she'll even try to work things out, regardless of how successful I might be. No promises. I know full well how lucky I am she's even willing to speak to me at this point. I've lied so many times I don't deserve a thing. I hope that as I prove to her along the way that I wasn't just making promises that are going to be broken. I hope she sees my determination and maybe she might be willing to trust me with her heart again. That's all I can HOPE for.

[akitagurl12]

well, i AM proud of you for not only getting through day 1 but also even making the decision to quit again.  That is one of the worst parts of relapsing, especially when it happens after you quit for awhile..  The next quit never seems like it counts until you pass up the day you lost it the last time.  I'm not sure if that is what it feels like for others, but i know that is what it was like for me.  Anyways, great job and can't wait for you to see how different you will be feeling at day 30 and beyond!

[Love_my_pills]

Thanks for the support, all. Four hours away from completing Day 1. Not a big accomplishment for me as I've been here before. Not to minimize the importance of what Day 1 means for anyone else, but for MY addiction and by the standards I set for myself, I'm only mildly proud of MY own Day 1. By MY personal standards, Day 14 will mean something. Just wanted to be clear so I wasn't minimizing anybody else's progress. I know for a LOT of people how really huge that is and I appreciate how huge it is.

[akitagurl12]

thats a great idea & just shows how committed you are to reclaiming your freedom:)  

[Fireby29]

First of all congrats.  What you are describing doing is an absolute KEY to maintaining your sobriety.  Flagging yourself at pharmacies is one of the components of making sure you have no supply . . .ever.  We all can get weak at times, and I know for me flat out not being able to get any pills and having none around me has been crucial to staying sober.  Call the CVS, Walgreens or mom and pop, and tell them your an addict and do not want these drugs ever filled for you by them.  Do this with your doctors if you have not done so also.  Tell family and friends and you have competed the trifecta to save yourself from this disease.  Hang in there, your doing great.

Bryan

[Bearclaw2]

Well then congrats for being off opiates since May 21 !! That is a great acomplishment even though you've gone to the Adderall. Talk to your pharmacist as that is your best source, don't be reluctant of that, they are trained for this and want to help. You can ask, but the 'ban' is your decision, they won't ban you for asking. You 'bested' me as an accident? Aww shoot, I was feeling good about that LOL A moron you are not, a wise person you are for seeking help... :)

[Love_my_pills]

The congrats are very much appreciated but I don't feel I've accomplished anything just yet. I've been this far before, so I'd hold off LOL. My plan is to chat with my doctor and basically ask them not to give me any prescriptions for Adderall or opiates specifically. And then see if there is a way to put myself on any database I can find so nobody will me these anymore. I'm sure they'll also have some suggestions for dealing with the pharmacies too. I've heard anecdotes about banning oneself from having scripts filled, similar to banning yourself from a casino. But I've never heard anything from anyone with firsthand knowledge. Thanks again.

Sorry, but I accidentally "bested" your response. I'm a moron. LOL, obviously!