Hey girl....I sent you a mess around Christmas and I didn't hear back....I haven't been on here in seems like for ever ...... went back to work Jan 5....so I thought i would get on here to try and find you......so you had surgery......send me a pm and let me know how you are......
Hi karen :) yes it hasn't been fun. It's the oxycodone they want me on,the one they've tried to put in me from the start. But I know orally oxy is stronger than dilaudid. But in iv form dilaudid is stronger. From what I've googled. I just didn't want the oxies in my body and I deff didn't want to be sent home with them. In a way I'm glad these are not drugs I don't like. I can't ever see myself wanting to take either of the two for fun. I got up today for the first time on my own and walked up the hallway a bit. I liked that,being stuck in the hospital bed with my thoughts is not fun. They brought a counsler in today to talk to me and that also helped a lot. I know my little body has been through a lot and I guess I never thought of it that way. Only being clean under 2 months was all I could think about. I didn't want to start over. But I guess this is my life right now,I need to stop counting how many days they've been pumping stuff into me and if it will mess with my head. I'll be ok. Thank you all. Krissy xoxo
Hi Krissy just wanted to see how you are doing! Im sorry you are having such a hard time with the meds! Hopefully they can find something that wont make you so nauseous! Ill be keeping you in my prayers for a swift healing! Hang in there my friend!
Hey Krissy how are you feeling? Its not a relapse when its given and taken for right reasons. I react to morphine the way you do with diluad. Both are powerful but sometimes you must have. When in severe pain takes longer to heal and very tough on your whole body. This is what cardiologist has told me several times. So just go with it so you can heal faster. Saying prayers.
Yes they stopped the iv one. And just using morphine iv and trying me on oral dilaudid. Just took 10 minutes ago. I think it's that awful rush through my body that is making me vomit. And it wears off in half hr? But I've caused damage to all 5 incisions now from vomiting. So I hope this works out. I'm not big on the morphine either. It makes me feel like I want to crawl outa my skin. This all sycks so bad. :,(
How are you today? Did they stop the dilaudid?
How you doing? That dilaudid is some powerful stuff and should be used with caution. Like you and your husband are doing. About you using meds, you're just fine. Now you need to get better. You shouldn't go forward thinking about anything but your recovery. Both recoveries. The fact you're worried just means you're committed. Hope you feel better real soon Krissy. Way to go. ike
I think you have a great plan in place, with your husband dispensing the meds, and Im glad he is going to be home with you, you need his support! I am doing just fine, plugging along at 74 days, cant even believe its been that long, the time has really started flying by! You are in my thoughts and I wish you a swift recovery, and I hope you keep posting because we really missed you around here!
Lots of Love
Carrie
Thank you. Not responding to dilaudid to wel. Been vomiting non stop. I feel it in my head right away when they put in my iv. It's awful stuff. Then I vomit in minutes. I don't understand why they keep putting it in. Just put me on anti nausea drip. But that won't help me if I take this crap home. Hoping when I get home next week OTC meds will be ok.
This isnt a relapse at all so focus on getting better. You have a good plan in place with your doctor knowing about your addiction and your hubby to hold the pills when you get home. Rest and get better~
Thank you Carrie Ann. I know once my husband got home I just spent every minute with him. Plus seeing sponser every few days. Plus phone calls. I missed you guys though! How are you feeling? Lots of love Krissy!! You to karen,hope you're well!! Congrats on that month love!!
Yes they are sending me home with the dilaudid take 3 times a day. My husband will give them to me. I won't leave hospital until Monday or Tuesday though. Hoping I won't need them by then
Hey Girl, me and Chels were just wondering about you AND missing you! I am sorry to hear you are in the hospital. I agree with everyone above, don't beat yourself up about this! There is a medical need, and the Doctors are administering it to you. This cannot be helped. You are in my prayers, and glad to see you back. Please keep us posted on your condition.
Lots of Love,
Carrie
Ms. Krissy! I was wondering where you were. Glad you are out of your surgery. I can tell you per AA/NA, that meds required for an actual medical reason, and not abused, is definitely not a relapse. In fact, one of NA's pamphlets is devoted to this topic. It discusses how pain meds can be necessary because life happens, and how to deal w/ it. Like if you need to go home w/ pills, you would have a sponsor dispense then for you. I know someone that did that actually.
Feel better and stick around, girl:)
Dilaudid is derived from morphine, but is much more potent. I also wouldn't consider this to be a "relapse," as I don't think there's a person alive who would want to have surgery with no analgesics, nor do I think any sane doctor would allow it.
Just be extra careful during your recovery - if possible, have someone dispense your meds for you when you need them, like scaredmama is planning to do. I think you'll be just fine.
Thank you girls!! :) really helps to hear that. I know I'll be sticking with my counsler extra close through this time. So much pain that I haven't felt a high of any sorts,just a little pain relief for a bit. So that sounds dumb,but it helps me.
Hey Krissy! I was just thinking about you yesterday! Im so sorry to hear about the surgery but I dont think it counts either! You still have your clean time and you need to listen to the Drs! Im sure that when they feel it is safe to be off of them they will take you off! But if you need them you need them!!! Hope that you are doing good otherwise and that you heal well from the surgery!!! Will be praying for you!!! XOXO Karen
I don't think this counts. Congrats on how long you quit for. I'm going on 6 days clean, but I am going to have surgery in six months. I was worrying about the same thing. What my plan is, my husband hold on to the pain meds and distribute them to me as needed, make sure I don't over use and risk getting addicted. Maybe you have someone to help you? Either way your got this. It doesn't count in my opinion, just keep control. Only use when absolutely necessary, and stop as soon as you don't need them. I hope you have a quick and easy recovery. You got this.