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What is sobriety?

Today at work I felt a surge of positive energy go through me, uncannily similar to the initial rush of my bygone first morning Lortab 10.

For me, I associated sobriety with just not taking pills, at first, just simplt staying clean even if I wanted to use. Then, I developed a sheer hatred for them, as if they were Satan himself;so besides not taking them, I just didn't want or crave them.

I think I've found another sobriety...it feels like my body and brain are getting cleaner, and my emotions are sharp and real. I feel high, because I'm connecting to my world, stimulated by both physical and emotional experiences.

Does anyone relate? And, if you're wondering if the detox you're dealing with right now is worth it...please don't doubt that. Stick with it.

I promise it's worth it.

---clean since 27 April 2013
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1416133 tn?1351123217
It's probably the "pink cloud" effect that you're currently experiencing.  I remember mine, and it was wonderful.  It was exactly the boost I needed to keep going after such a long and difficult detox/early recovery period.  It gave me hope, and that was HUGE for me at that time.

Enjoy! :) (keep in mind, the PC effect may fade, but the good feelings will remain, so don't let it trip you up).
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5347058 tn?1381188426
I have yet to have the 'pink cloud' effect. I have a lot of ups and downs still at day 54. I do find that I am starting to really enjoy and appreciate the small things in life that I've overlooked for so long. That is nice. I am glad that you are doing so well, my friend. I know that you have worked very hard to get to this point. Enjoy it!
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I am going thru a really bad time right now...I just hit 18 days clean and found out bad news about my Mom, and my all over depression feels WAY way more intense than it JUST being the news about my Mom. I actually am thinking "I want my life, the way is way before pills" which I know is not rational.  It's horrible. So, I am going on faith from you guys that I need to stick w/ this even tho I don't believe today.
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I wouldn't classify what you experienced today as anything but you feeling better and knowing you are on the right path. It's amazing how your spirits can be lifted when you know you are doing the right thing...just enjoy these moments of energy and that "uplifted" feeling....they feel just wonderful when they come out of no where, especially if you have been struggling with not feeling so well. That feeling will become more and more prevelant the farther away you get from detox.  Congrats to your awesome attitude, that will really carry you far in this journey!!!!  Here's wishing you more and more of those "pink cloud" moments.....
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4341997 tn?1514588688
congrats on your clean time!  those great feelings will come more and more often now....will be good and bad days but the good will out weigh the bad...just keep that positive attitude....it will take you far!  great work!
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I totally relate. I have no fight or flight feelings, it's as if my compulsion and obsessive thinking shifted. Now, that took awhile, I was on methadone, which doesn't allow a pink cloud for many, PAWS is a battle of its own. It was aftercare, self awareness, and coping skills that made it happen for me. Stopping drugs made me feel horrible, working my program has made me feel better than I have since I was a kid. If it is a pink cloud, enjoy it as much as possible, that is a glimpse of what is possible. Keep your guard up though, stay in the center of your recovery circle. Learning to deal with the bad times is part if it, learning to deal with good times coming and going is another part of it. Nothing is forever and always, good or bad. I'm always jealous of pink clouds, I feel gypped. I really encourage aftercare, especially now that you feel so good. Congrats on your progress, it gets even better, isn't that exciting? Keep up the good work and attitude.
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