When will I feel again?

Question

I was off pills for a while but had to go back on.  I had to have several very painful tooth surgery.  I tried to stay off but the pain was off the chart.  I haven't had horrible physical w/d in the past.  I was only taking about 2-3 vics a day.  Is it normal to not really feel anything emotionally?  I can't concentrate and I lie around just watching tv.  I know it's not true but I think I do better on pills.  I am more creative and have so much more energy.  I know my brain chemistry is changed because of the pills.  Is there anyway to get it happy again?

Sophie2337 · Answer

Thanks for the advice everyone.  I am going to try and do some exercise.  I didn't do much before because of my pain.  But there is always walking.  I've been on the pills for 3 years.  I am on antidepressants so that should help with the endorphins a bit

Innerstrength67 · Answer

Not sure if I can give any advice but I can relate. I think we all go through this. Just keeping posting and reading.

spanky595 · Answer

These pills also have side effects when you stop taking them. But when you start taking them again you are starting your addiction back up. And that makes you happy and full of energy. If you can stop and dont take any more you will be better off in the long run. How long have you been taking pills. If not long you may be able to quit and not have the bad withdrawals. Walking may help, weight lifting. or maybe jogging I can not go 1 day without working out or walking at least a mile if not 2 it does make your endorphins pop and makes you feel better. If you have trouble with quiting talk to your Doc. tell him your story and he may be able to tapper you down. If your sick of drugs you can do this. And you might want to try NA this will help you also.

luciddreamrgrl · Answer

I felt the same way as you. I still do a little but I'm getting back to my old self. I'm an artist. I paint murals. I did some of my best work while taking vicodin. I'm still not ready to start painting again but I just keep telling myself that I was an artist before I took those pills! So obviously I can still do it sober. Try to remember your life before the pills. It helps me sometimes.

donewitis · Answer

It will get better. Force yourself to do some kind of exercise..be it walking or whatever else you can do. The more you do the better..to build up your endorphins. We stop producing our own brain chemicals when using opiates..we are getting synthetic, so our bodies don't produce the dopamine, the seratonin, and others. It takes time..but our bodies will adjust and start creating what is needed. I know exactly what you are talking about. It's not true that you are better with opiates. As I recently heard here...there never is a happy ending with continuing use. It only gets worse. 
Keep posting, I'm glad you found this forum. It's been a great help to me.

deadlift · Answer

i feel for you im going through the same thing right now and its horrible, im so depressed but i look around at all the people in recovery and they are happy so i believe we have a chance