Withdrawals--can I get through them?

[SoDoneNow]

I'm a 37-year mother of two who has developed a nasty addiction to Percocet. I don't take it for pain--I take it because it makes me feel good. However, when I'm using it, I'm disconnected from my family and friends, and really only live for the pills. I want to stop! I stopped earlier this year and went through some harsh withdrawals--the flu, depression, anxiety, and insomnia. After 3 weeks of using again, I still felt weird and I got another batch. That was 2.5 weeks ago and I've gone through about 200 of them (up to 10-13 a day).

I want to quit. I have about 20 left and am hoping I won't do them. But I said that yesterday and I did 11 of them anyway. Any advice for me? Will the withdrawals be awful for a high dosage in a short amount of time? I'm afraid of what will happen.

[SoDoneNow]

21 days! That's great. I hope to get there. Right now, I can't bring myself to toss the pills. I've never felt like something had a really strong hold on me but THEY do. They convince me that taking them is the best choice and, when I'm not on them, my mind is always thinking of ways to get them. That's the scariest part for me--how did you get the thoughts out of your head?

[NeverDreamed]

Hey there, great news wanting to quit.  I was taking anything I could get..Vicodin/Norco/Percocet.. I was taking 20+ Vicodin a day or about 15 Norco, I rarely got percocet.  I went cold turkey, my withdrawals sucked but were manageable.  Day 3 is the worst, and you will feel like just taking 1 or 2 to help, DON'T.  Make sure you get them out of your house/reach, cut off your avenues of getting them (Dr., Friends, etc.).  You will start to feel better about Day 4, but truly by Day 5.   I had to make sure I had at least 2 days to have the "flu" according to my friends and family, because I am doing this alone by choice.  I made sure I had immodium on hand, I had to force myself to eat and eat good nutritious foods, force yourself to hydrate... I took clonidine which is a blood pressure medication, but used for withdrawal symptoms, it helped a lot, and I took benadryl at night to sleep, because you will be wide awake.  Also if you can get some food in your stomach and can take a Super B Vitamin complex, that helps with energy, and just makes you feel better.  
I'm at Day 21 today, my physical withdrawals were gone by Day 6 ish.. I still had chills every great once in awhile, and sneezed a lot, but nothing bad.  Anxiety kicks in but rarely.  Try to excercise a little, although I was never able to push myself to.  Tie up your mind with other things, I LOVE to read and read the Hunger Games series in a week (3 books), it occupied my mind, watch movies, try to make yourself get out of bed and proceed like normal (no pills, just normal house/life stuff), I did A LOT of reading and posting here, it helps so very much.  You can msg me anytime, I check them often throughout the day.  Good Luck to you.  Make sure you toss those pills.  

[apike31108]

I am praying it gets better. I don't think it can get worse. Unless I go back to the pills of course.

[SoDoneNow]

Are you taking anything at night to help? How long was your addiction? Day 4 is great--I remember it gets much better on Day 5-6. Hang in there!

[apike31108]

I am on day 4 of taking up to 10 Lortab 10s/7.5s a day. This is by far the hardest day. Mentally. Physically it hits at night mostly for me. Good luck.