Wow

[bb454]

Im a little over a week clean from a 6 to 8 hydro a day habit for two years..detox was bad but not too too bad...today I am so depressed!! I have been on Prozac for a week or so. I realize it takes a while to get into your system. Im just so sad today...i have too many people depending on me to feel this bad..ugh lord help me!

[MIkanik]

I hope your day has begun to get better....it sounds like it somewhat! :o)  I probably sound like a broken record by saying what I'm going to suggest on these "down" days.  This is what helps me....I wake up and look out my window and greet the morning with major "THANKS!" that I have another day clean under my belt (today is day 51 when I started my w/d).  I then have a good drink of water and then drink my cup(s) of coffee, eat a good *healthy* breakfast and take a REALLY good multi-vitamin AND a vitamin B supplement (it's amazing for energy and dealing with depression, stress and anxiety).  If it's a really down day then I'll take another vit B at lunch time.  Also, watch what you eat!!  The less processed foods you eat the better off you are!  Your mind and body will totally thank you!  Our addictions have depleted our body of sooo many things that help with our mood and energy and just overall wellness.  Now is the time ...even at my stage...to "heal" the body.  I also found that a good protein shake with good amino acids does wonders for mental clarity and healing your brain from all the damage done.  These are things that worked for me and, I believe, really helped reduce the healing time for my body.  I now have so few down days & find myself waking up more and more looking forward to the day.  As stated above, take it day by day.  Don't worry about what tomorrow will bring.  Just live for today and all the possibilities it has in store for you!

Keep up the great work and keep living the amazing life you deserve! <3

[teachermommy690]

Hang in there!  I found that going into work in my classroom yesterday (it was day 3 for me) helped me a lot!  It gave me something to think about, focus on, kept me busy.  I didn't socialize a lot because I'm still coming out of my 'fog' of the pills and didn't want the overstimulation of too much conversations.  I know you'll do this!  You want it and that's what counts!  You've made it so far already!  Keep posting and getting this support.  This place is awesome!  I'll be thinking of you today and sending you strength.  We're all in your corner, sweets!  

[bb454]

Hey self..on my way into work. I only work out of the house one day a week. I called off last week so this will be,my first day of work in a,long time without washing my morning vike down with coffee..please wish me,luck I have to deal with a lot of people today. Thx for xheckn up on me!

[selfinduced]

How are you this morning?

[bb454]

Cali...i wish..im in Pennsylvania :)

[Dixiechick72]

Ugh!!! I'm so down for that!!! Lol. It would be nice if we could all meet for a group huh. Pat could really use us too. I think we could all benefit from it. Funny my day started in a funk but lifting others seems to help me more then lifting myself. Funny how that works. I guess that's why I am who I am.  I hope all this has helped u in a positive way!!!  Anytime ur in southern Cali I'm down for coffee!!!!;)

[bb454]

Thank you.Dix...tears again :) I miss him so much I cant believe its almost been a year..i dont know what I would do without this site right now..i wish we could all go and have coffee together!

[Dixiechick72]

I'm sorry for ur loss of ur dad. He sounds amazing. But I'm sure he's looking down on u. Smiling so proud of the steps u have taken to get here.  Use that as a goal!!! I know I am thinking of how to become a councilor for this crap.  If I can help or change one persons mind to be clean. I've had great support here and I just want to give back what I have gained here. Hang in there ok. He's smiling down on u right now and that truly warms my heart!!! Big hugs

[bb454]

Tears...thank you so much..your posts have gotten me off the couch..i mean it. :)

[selfinduced]

Yes Ma'am......YOU CAN!!!!!! and guess what, then you too will be helping pull others off their knees. I believe in you.

[bb454]

Thanks selfinduced..my Dad was a fricken saint..you should have read his online obituary..person after person saying how my Dad saved their life by sponsoring them..my god not having him here for this I feel like im mourning double :( I have his dedicated blood pumping through my veins..i can do this..right?!

[selfinduced]

I am so sorry for your loss, but how committed your dad was in his recovery to deny pain meds. I guess that affirms what the folks with lots of clean time say, They would rather endure the pain than take the meds that robbed their peace and soul. BB, you were on my exact dose and if not for this forum and one guy ink particular, I'd still be using. I was stubborn, private, ashamed and oh so sic. If I could get out of this mess, you can too. Please commit to 30 days. You won't believe how wonderful you feel. All your senses will come back in ways you forgot you ever had. I'm routing for you and your dad has a front row seat! xx

[bb454]

My Dad was a recovered addict..he had 15 years clean. I have written about him numerous times on here so forgive me for repeating. He had cancer for many years..woukdnt even take pain medication for a tumor wrapped around his spine..he was afraid to wake the demon..so suffered. I just know he would be able to pull me through this if he were here..i know I can do it though. I have a family to care for. When Moms down this house falls apart..i origionally took the med for my back then it turned into for my back and energy to be supermom....ha! Yeah a real"super"mom...not so super right now but working on it...dix im glad you have your brother to hold ur hand through this!

[selfinduced]

Such is the circle of life.....karma comes full circle. So fortunate you are to have him and he to have you. He is now a mirror of what you will be when your thru this.....so nice.

[Dixiechick72]

Lol he is. He was a crazy drug addict. Did everything under the sun!!! It landed him in and out of jail. I saw his life fall apart. The funny thing was he moved in with me to get clean.   Now look at me!!! After his two years I started abusing pain pills slowly.  Anyways he's sober and is my Rock through  all this.   It helps so I share!!!

[selfinduced]

Your brother sounds like a wise, wise soul. He just inspired me. Thank You.

[minn66]

Hi bb, I understand the sadness. If you can, try to find something funny to watch. A show, movie, or comedian. Laughing really does help and it distracts you from thinking about what you're going through. Humor has gotten me through many a rough day. Keep on keeping on, it will get better, it just takes time. I know it seems easy for me to say but believe me, I've been there.

Hugs,
Minn

[Dixiechick72]

Don't be sorry. I've been in a funk all day!!! Mind over matter though. Trying to hold on to the positive. I didn't think I could do a damn thing today but I pushed myself to go to the gym. I came home and dropped for 30 min in bed. Our bodies are still adjusting as is urs. Maybe ask ur doctor about seeing a therapist. It doesn't hurt. The more support the better right??!! Hang in there and post as u need to

[bb454]

It did help me Dixie..thank you so muchh for sharing that! I just cant seem to get it together today..unbelievably tired and talk about being depressed..wow! Im sorry if im bringing people down or being negative im just so down today. Really bad day :(

[Dixiechick72]

Hey there wanted to stop in and say hi. Look I think we've kind of hit a low here but the saying is true. Life is full of curve balls it's how we come out swinging that matters!!!  I've too have been down in the dumps but I think our body is going through so many changes. I did ask my brother who is my NA man. He said cranberry juice and Vit c helped him. Breathe he told me. Take life in for now. What's so bad??? Really??  He said he went up and down with his moods for a couple months. He's been sober for 4 years now.  U see I'm a planner. I like to know what to expect and when. He laughs at me and tells me every person is different. For him his cravings ended at a year?? A year ??? Wth??? Stop!!! One day at a time. Live life for today. Love life for today for u never know what tomorrow will bring ... Wow. He inspires me !!! So hopefully this will inspire u too. You know I think this is pushing me more to read my NA books  and post positive things for us...;) hang in there ok

[kme17]

No prob. I was also on prozac first .. didnt help me. Good luck.

[bb454]

ok ill keep an eye on it..thanks kme

[kme17]

Hey i am not a doc but i have done reserch on this. Prozac is for seritonon. I knew come off a dopamine high i would need an anti depressent that replaced it. Wellburin, effector.thinks like taht. Stick w it for a bit n if no change or worse. Ask for an snri

[bb454]

Thanks Pat!