can't figure it out

[overeasy]

I've been working with a therapist - thanks ibk for making me do this- and i still have no idea why i got to this place.  i never did drugs when i was younger - to frightened and chicken **** cuz i didn't know what was in them-ocd i guess;). and followed the set path i made for myself to succeed.  i have a great family, don't have to worry financially and i still want to escape- obviously.  i see some very strong people on here that put me to shame.  all the obstacles they have overcome- its amazing.  what the duck is wrong with me?

[theirmommie72]

your'e story is my story hun.  i am the same way.  always careful, always mindful.  but with pills, all bets are off.  do i know why i need them?? no.  do i know why i want them? no.  it's a mystery.  maybe it's habit.  but i know it is insanity.  i used to be afraid of pills. my mom offered me an oxy for my back i told her no way.  those make me feel weird.  lol  i wish i had the same attitude now that i did back then. i am here for you hun.  you know this mayne!! lol  

t~