OMG-- i read your post for dizzigirl and realized what you said about being in the hospital..I am not sure if you read what i went through after a surgery..But anyway i was in the hospital for like 9 days..They would give me 1 7.5 every four hours..I would almost cry..Then when the withdrawlas would kind of set in my blood pressure would go up alittle and they didn't know why, but i did, and still could not come clean with them..i can't hurt my family right now, because they have some stuff they are trying to deal with and i would not help their pain right now with mine.
But i wanted to tell you i know what you felt like..I almost said it and caught myself..But was really scared..But i really think my tapering started their so i am still tapering.
good luck--don't give up