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740886 tn?1233717443

day 12 and its still no picnic out there...

It's been 12 days since I took that last hydro 7.5 and its still so hard.  Yesterday and the day before I felt so great cause the physical symptoms were finally subsiding I thought it'd be all daisies by now but its still a battle.  A battle against that thought to just find a pill and feel that happiness again...  I don't want to discourage people beginning their journey to other side of the mountain, at least I am in control over my life again and I wouldn't give that up for the world.  I now realize I would've never quit if I didn't stop when I did.  That gives me strength but the now I'm trying to get out there I'm finding the everyday being so hard.  I'm taking some supplements, exercise, eating right and still feel the arms holding me back.  I guess I'd just like to see if anyone else is experiencing this and how long till the everyday gets easier?  I do think I may need therapy but I have such a money problem...  I guess I can't make more money till i get better...  
Thanks for everyone posts its the big difference for me, I would've never made it without a 24/7 support resource...  I hope you we all stay off the devil opiates for the rest of our lives!  Such poison...
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611067 tn?1458591483
Great idea about a therapist.  I see a therapist and it has helped me tremendously.  It has helped me see where my destructive behavior was coming from and how to move forward away from stimulants to feel better.  In fact, I had a stressful thing happen today and I wanted to take a Xanax so bad to deal and I didn't.  I have Xanax available for when anxiety hits me hard (it runs in my family) but I chose not too.  I decided to talk to my sister-in-law and she suggested I say a prayer instead and it feels good.  Therapy can teach us how to make different choices rather than popping a pill to feel better!  

You're doing great!
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740886 tn?1233717443
Thanks again for all the comments!  I used to go to Alateen meetings when I was younger and have a lot of friends who have gone through it so I know a lot about it and I've been thinking about it a lot lately in regards to me telling people I've been on them for most of the last 5 years, my friends wedding, watching my niece, etc...  I'm gonna start with a therapist to help me get the strength and get back out there.  Another reason I think I should go is just to meet new people because some of my old friends are still using and I must distance myself from them...  Thank you everyone for the support!
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390416 tn?1275185087
CONGRATS on 13 days!!! GREAT JOB!!!

Have you thought about going to any NA/AA meetings? You need to reprogram your mind and learn how to deal w/ issues other than by taking a pill to make you numb out. At these meetings you will learn the tools on how to deal with life on life's terms. Once our physical  wd's are gone..it's the mental issues and dealing w/ our emotions and feelings that become the big struggle.

Just a thought and one i havent' seen mentioned.


Good luck and keep posting!!
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611067 tn?1458591483
Hang in there - it will get better every day.  I also had the same addiction.  For me, it took longer than a lot of people said it would.  I went through a deep, deep depression.  But, I'm doing so well now and I'm at about 145 days clean.  I promise life will get better and better every day.  It's amazing when you walk outside and can actually hear the birds chirping and see flowers and watch the leaves waving from the wind.  These are things I stopped paying attention to before - it's like a whole new life and world!  Good luck and congratulations on how far you've come!  You're doing great!  Hugs, Janet
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hang in ther it will come each and every day you will notice just a little bit of a difference,try taking the 5htp one in the morning 1in the afternoon and then 1 in the evening i had to go the 3 aa day for a while and then cut back to 2 a day.Hang in there and way to go on 13 days do the happy dance!!!!
snowflake
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740886 tn?1233717443
Thank you all so much for your encouragement!!!  Day 13 seems a little brighter today.  I was just surprised that I'd have such low days.  Getting a good nights sleep seems to be key so I doubled up on my 5htp taking it before dinner and after...  
Good luck to all of you out there quitting opiates, quit them all!!!
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303824 tn?1294871401
You go girl! WOOT WOOT!! Just keep on truckin along and the rest will fall into place. You are allllllllmost there and with your positive attitude, it's not going to be much longer. Keep up the good work!!
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495284 tn?1333894042
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Congrats on 12 days!!!!  The first month is pretty rough.  It takes time for our body and mind to heal.  Just stay positive and work thru the low moments.  It will get easier.  Stay strong        sara
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740886 tn?1233717443
Thank you all so much for your comments!!!  It means a lot to hear from those who are doing it or have done it!  
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584512 tn?1301271985
Congrats on your 12th day!! For me... getting clean has always been the easy part- it's the struggle to STAY clean that I can't keep battling!

The best advice and can give to you and to myself is to take each day at a time- sometimes when the cravings are really bad you have to take each minute and a time and be proud of every minute you fight off the temptation to go back to the lifestyle of pills!

Congrats and good luck~!
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452063 tn?1324074916
Congrats on the 12 days. I also felt really good for a few days after day 5 then the mental stuff started. It's been a bumpy ride but I think I'm going to make it this time. It does take a few months to feel consistently better. For me, at first it was a rollarcoaster...felt good a couple days then not so good. The good days start to outnumber the bad but it's still hard for me when I have a few consecutive bad days together. I really have a hard time remembering that I felt good for awhile when I'm in that not so good place. I have a journal that I get out when I have bad days and read all of the reasons that I wanted to quit...I have meaningful song lyrics ect. and also I write when I have a especially good day. I was just 4 months clean yesterday and am now having times when I feel as good as I did high....I know this feeling will come and stay longer and the bad days will go away as my recovery time builds. If you read posts from the members who have alot of clean time they will all remind you of this when you get a bad day. This is the hard part of recovery. Getting a counselor is a great thing. I'm really concidering it myself. God bless, Corey
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710513 tn?1247522479
Congrats on 12 days .....I am at 55 days and it hasn't been easy but it sure is worth it....I would think the  physical is pretty much behind you.  For me the Mental part took a little longer than i thought it would but as hard as it  sounds...It does get better each and every day...My Dr/. was a great help to me.   From some of the other posts I think that makes me lucky...My Dr gave me something to help with my anxiety I ony took it for about 10 days but it got me over the tough mental part...I am Writing this without ANY checmicals and I feel better thant I could have imagined...You will get there too!!! jUst keep going one day or one hour at a time... Goood Luck..

Jambo
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740886 tn?1233717443
Thank you so much!  That's all I needed to hear.  I've heard a ton about the first week but now I realize about the first month and so on...  Makes a big difference, thanks...
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First of all well done on getting to 12 days. Your right it is a battle and at first there are so many ups and downs it can be so frustrating. Your doing everything you need to be doing now and when your back on your feet you can, you should see that counsellor if you want, i think it's a great idea. It really does take time, recovery is not just w/d's as you have been reading on here. Avis's posts about aftercare is so important. Everyone is different for length of time it takes, but it seems the first month is the toughest with so many changes going on. Our bodies and hurting and our head is foggy and a mess still. Hang in there and i promise your gonna see a lot of positive changes soon, your doing great:)
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