day 26

[BearsFan1966]

Well today is day 26! Yesterday was a horrible day! Fighting with the hubby and not feeling well at all! Thought I was getting Kidney Stones again the pain was horrible! just cried thinking I would have to go back on pain meds but today the pain is gone! yea!
Went out with my son for a bit and had lunch.Still tired and unmotivated but pushing through!
I think right now its really hard because my husband is not being very understanding with my progress and that is causing a lot of fighting between us......he thinks all should be normal by now and does not understand nor will he read up on any of the with drawl symptoms! sorry I guess I just needed to vent....thanks

[VICourageous]

Hi..Great job so far..Keep it up. What I did was get some videos & information printed out on the Disease of Addiction. I had some from drug addiction to alcohol. Both of them talked alot on how the Substances affect different brain transmitter, receptors, reuptake inhibitors etc.etc. It is complicated at first to understand so he watch this many times over and read alot..He was with me when the Psychologist told us that it could take a year or two for the brain to balance back because I was a long time user. So My Hub came to understand this and just left me be to heal..He never yelled at me but gave me support. When I would get SO frustrated on how slow it was moving he would remind me about what he read and what the Drs had said..SO Maybe try to get some of this education and he might just back off a bit..Our Hubs are one of are greatest supporter we need. I wish you the best and just keep trucking along..Time is the Greatest Healer of it all and that is the truth..days away from a year and I am still healing emotionally.
Bless..

[butterbean841]

Hey Bear....well done on 26 days, that's some achievement!

It would be wonderful if we all had understanding partners wouldn't it? I myself went c/t and told my other half it was 'flu ...that way i knew i'd get around 3-4 days of taking care of me then it'd be back to business. Although he didn't say very much in the following weeks i could see he was getting fed up with the aches and pains i was getting still so i basically had to grit my teeth and get on with it.

Looking back on it now i can see that HE didn't lead me down this road (in fact he would have been horrified if he had known the full truth of it) I did this to myself so basically just had to suck it up.

Believe me when i tell you it won't be long before you're sooo proud of yourself, knowing you did this for YOU .... i can't think of a better reason than that can you?

Be strong for yourself and your child,don't make any rash decisions at the moment and keep on encouraging your hubby to visit this forum.....he'll get a good idea of what you're going through by reading other posts. I do believe that no one can actually know how bad this can be unless it's something they've experienced for themselves but it may give him an insight if he's willing.... If not, know you have done your best to educate him then let it go.

You can push through this...after all .....look how far you've already come...nearly hitting the month mark...way to go Bear!!

Jane x

[BearsFan1966]

thank you very much!
All of you are my strength and support! With out you guys I would never of made it this far! Love you all

[ariley13]

That's too bad. Stick close to us. We are here for you when you need us, ok? I am proud of you for sticking to your guns and not giving up because the road gets rough.

[BearsFan1966]

no I am not going to meetings... I home school my son and my husband would have a fit if I left at night, like I said very selfish! At first he totally understood and very supportive but now he thinks I should be "back to normal"
but I am not giving up!

[ariley13]

That makes it so much more difficult. There's really no way to understand how hard this is unless you have gone through it, but it would be nice for you to have some support from him. Are you going to NA meetings? That might be a good idea so that you could have a little more support and meet some people who are going through the same thing. We are here for you too, but it's not exactly the same as person to person support.

[BearsFan1966]

Thank you so much! I think getting out with my son helped a lot. My husband is a very selfish person and is not very understanding about any thing let alone how hard this is for me!

[ROSYouralright]

CONGRATS on 26 hard won days!! I am so glad to see you posting!! Vent away my friend!! You are doing GREAT!

[ariley13]

First off, congrats on 26 days clean! That's awesome! Second, vent away! This is a very hard process under the best of circumstances. We have to re-learn to deal with stress, emotions, basically life all over again. Please keep venting as much as you need to, ok? Another thing that helps me when I am having a rough day and having trouble getting a handle on things is journaling. It can be very therapeutic. I hope that things start to look up very soon. Keep your head up and take care of yourself. You and your recovery come first!