day 5 no narcotics

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Well I made it to day 5 it was absolute hell. I have been on and off (mostly on) narcotics for 5 years. I was very close to loosing my amazing job. My first day was friday. Ive been doing a lot of reading and it seems like the part i just got through may not be the hardest part. I have no idea who i am without narcotics. My family is extremely supportive and i told my boss yesterday what i was going through. He was very supportive and is 100% behind my recovery and putting my work life back together. Its like im a brand new baby who has to relearn everything. I had to get rid of some friends and even block them because they would not respect my boundries. I feel optimistic now but it feels like waves of happy and then sad. When do the mood swings start to mellow out?

corey4433 · Answer

Congrats Im 2 weeks clean from oxy was on it for 4 yrs I'm still up and down more up then down I keep getting head ache hope that passes and trying manage my back pain is challenging but I'm not giving up I totally stop listening to music I love music now I have music on all day hang in there

Believe_in_yourself · Answer

Hello Nikki and welcome. I agree with what's been said already. A big kuddos to you for letting your family and boss know. It is so much easier in my mind than holding those "secrets" plus they will support you along the way! That's a true blessing there. Keep it up and seek aftercare! You can do this! Many prayers your way!

nikkinubean · Answer

Yea i really have no desire to take a pill now but i do know i will. My boyfriend has been clean and sober for 3 years and i think im going to go to a meeting with him there is a na meeting close... I also have a couple other people in the clean and sober community that i have been thinking about reaching out to. Im just not sure that this week is the week. First time a get that itch i will reach out instead of trying at it alone. This is the first forum ive ever joined and already feel the bennifits from talking about it. But we are writing the social anxiety is crazy. Tues and thurs i teach swim class for 5 hours also and i did it. Not sure how but the kids and being in the pool exercising made it go away for a little bit.

gnarly_1 · Answer

Hi Nikke....have you thought about witch kind of aftercare may be a good fit.???...we preach aftercare so hard because your chances of making it without are less then 10%....those here with any length of clean time will tell you they work on there recovery....it is still ezer then using 24/7 anyway let us know what you think
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nikkinubean · Answer

I am still going strong. Yesterday was rough i fell short of my goals but only by 1.5 hours. So if i had a half hour to each day I'll be fine. I slept really well last night full 7 hours. This anxiety is for the birds tho. I work at home for a solar company so im on the phine with people all day. If someone yells at me i burst into tears. But on the plus side i feel again i know ill learn how to control it again right now ill just experience it. Thank you all for your comments, support and push to post. This is definitely an experience thats for sure.

gnarly_1 · Answer

Hi Nikki you still with us ...please post to let us know how your doing >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>Gnarly<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<

corey4433 · Answer

Congrats Im 2 weeks clean from oxy was on it for 4 yrs I'm still up and down more up then down I keep getting head ache hope that passes and trying manage my back pain is challenging but I'm not giving up I totally stop listening to music I love music now I have music on all day hang in there

Pollyanna7 · Answer

I am on day 7 of no pain killers after a 10 year addiction. I went of them for almost 9 months then relapsed for almost a year and now I am here again saying NO MORE! I have been going through hell too and feel like crap. Yesterday was better and today is better though I still feel anxious but its bearable. I want to focus on the positive and not the hard. When I was off the pills last year I felt like a different person. I had become a shell of who I was. I didn't even know it. After being clean for a couple weeks I looked in the mirror at myself and I looked so different. Thats what is happening now. I look so much better and though its HARD its worth it. 
I am so happy you have a support system and are honest with the people around you. That is huge!! I will pray for you and me:) you can do this!! Now is the time not later.

gnarly_1 · Answer

Hi.....well first off your correct that as bad as it is getting clean is,it is the ez part it is staying clean that takes work.....the mode swings will hang around for a wile....this is the first thing you have ''felt'' in a long time and it takes some getting use to.....now is the time to put some form of aftercare in place...there are many avenues to choose from and I have tryed most....my first was the pastor of my church then a addiction therapist then a substance abuse counselor all kept me clean but the addict that lived in my head was alive and well along with all the addictive behaviors.....I finely surendered to that fact that these methods helped but I was still missing something....it was the N/A progam that is the magic bullet for this addict it truely gave me my life back N/A treats the addict and addresses the behaviors with time you will loose the very desire to get high something I thought was impossible after 35yrs of active addiction....it is free the meetings are only a hour long with time and working the steps you can get your life back....and a amazing one at that....the meetings will give you some place to share what is going on with you and for the first time the people will understand...1 addict helping another is without parallel with a addict to my left and another to my right we rarely fall those that go to meetings tend to stay clean...today active addiction no longer runs my life...I will always be a work in progress but the addictive behaviors...the compulsions the obsessions and the need for instant gratification are gone and I lead a normal life this is the only progam that can help you overcome this please dont try to skip this critical part of recovery....keep posting for support and congrats on 5 days clean...google a N/A meeting near you...step out of your comfort zone and go....all you have to do is lissen you dont even need to speak...but most addicts will feel right at home and when your ready you can share...keep posting here for support
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