dealing the pain and/ of relapse

[notme42long]

Day 1 saturday. I had 52 cleen days the back pain the mental energy I caved in for the last 3 weeks taking 2 or 3 a day. I restarted my tracker some wd a lot of guilt and remorse.
My biggest mistake was I going on with my life was feeling good And left working on my recovery Beehind.

[notme42long]

Thank you all for your words of encouragement. I will get my days back. I can help a kick myself around all weekend I know that's not productive but who doesn't. For those 3 weeks all I could think of every day is how i f*** up and I must stop now! Here i am at day 3.

[kme17]

That is very true. If it was easy... We all my fall again but its getting back up that matters!

[doitformyson]

If this was easy we all wouldn't be here man....Don't beat yourself up over this hiccup...

[minn66]

Yep, you made it to 52 days and you can do it again. You realize what happened so now you'll be able to prepare for it. Hang in there, you'll be a Double D before you know it ;) Oh, and don't (although it is easy to say) expend energy beating yourself up. All that does is make you feel worse and isn't productive. We've all messed up in some way. Just move forward. You know you can do it!

[kme17]

I imagine once you stop working its falls apart fast. I will pray for our strength to get thru this! Congrats on 52. You made it once you will do it again

[littlebit667]

It happens to the best of us.  Just get back on the wagon.  Hopefully, it won't be too bad or hard to get back that good feeling of being clean.