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[bandnmom]

Hi! I am new here. I've been reading everyones comments and thought I would post myself. I am addicted to Vicodin 7.5 and have been on and off for about 8 years. The worst of it over the last 2 years. I thought I was good at keeping it from my family and friends, but as we all know they do eventually find out. About 6 weeks ago I was sick and tired of hiding my problem and being broke so I quit cold turkey.  My husband makes great money but when the bills were paid the rest went to my addiction. I would rob peter to pay paul basically. It almost started to feel like a job, all the hiding and lying. I am a good wife, mother and person. This is something I didn't meen to happen but it just did. My parents were both addicts and I swore I would never be but look at me know! I am embarresed of myself. My husband finally confronted me 2 days before Christmas and deep down in side I was releived. I have wanted to tell him and ask for help for a while but I as to scared to. I was honest and told him about my addiction. Last night I went to my first NA meeting and he went with me for support. I feel lucky. At first he as so angry with me but now he is being great. Totally not what I expected.He said "For better or for worse right?" This time I am done for good. I know this. I have tried so many times but after all this and 6 weeks clean I feel great. I now know I am still a good mom and wife and that I don't need pills to do it. Its a great feeling. I look forward to having money in the bank again and not always being in fear of being caught. Like the saying goes, " I feel like a huge weight has been lifted" and its true I in some way feel a little lighter!

[GoingToMakeIt]

Good job. I am so glad to hear your husband is there for you. That helps a lot. We are here for you too. I love your strength. You will succeed in this endeavor. If you aren't taking vitamins and supplements. I highly recommend them. I believe it helps the body rebuilding process. I also think it helps in the success rate too.

[Becca911]

Love your post, wish I could be that strong. I drive by a NA meeting place everyday going to my mom's house and wish I had the courage to go inside for help.
Sounds like you have great will power.
Good Luck,
Becca

[Peaches5036]

Awesome. Sounds like you are doing all the right things. "Nice ladies" ,often have a hard time getting to NA, with "those street junkies".
Truth is whether legal or not, and many of us start with a legal doctor's perscription, and end up so dependent and addicted and are too ashamed to go for help. The 12 steps work., I have alot of friends who are doctors, nurses, pharacists, who have gotten addicted to pills and found recovery in NA. I've be alcohol free for 5 1/2 years and AA works for me. Was a "nice lady" who drank at home. Me an alcoholic? Like those barflies? Was in immense denial. Thought i was better than "drunks and junkies". Nope.  Glad that my snobby  atitude finally got broken. I love the AA and NA people and have learned from all. High end and low end. Folks that lost everything and folks who fooled everyone.
The biggest fool is the person who is fooling herself.
God bless you. Peace
You are an inspriation and hope you keep up the good work.

[msinsane]

you are doing great keep it up this forum will help i fely the same way with my 2 kids if i ran out of pills i felt like NO i knew i would take it out on them  good luck

[bandnmom]

Honestly I was sick and tired of the lies and being broke. I am a strong willed person and always have been. When I was out of pills I was crabby and felt like I was taking it out on my kids which made me feel like a bad mom. Like i said I went to my first NA meeting last night and I really think that is really going to help me stay clean for good this time. Everone shared their stories with me since I was new to the group. Some have been clean for only a few months and some for 16 or more years. It gave me alot of hope. I would suggest it to anyone trying to quit and I plan on going back evry week.

[jag_tek]

Hi,
I am new as well, trying to figure out myself and straighten out my life.
I am glad your husband is supportive.  My wife is not handling my withdrawl days well.  Years ago she asked me to quit smoking, I did.
After 3 days she asked me to start again.
I am in the same boat w/ my pill problem.  I think she would rather have me the way I was a couple of months ago than now.
Six weeks to me sounds like six years. Cogratulations!
What has been your biggest motivation?

[ruby441]

WOW!!! You are amazing, 6 weeks clean cold turkey is unbelievable, good for you, keep it up. How on earth did you do it on your own, you must have incredible inner strength.
Peace, love, & strength in the New Year!!!

ruby441

[1eagle]

We really need to hear stories like yours around here....I just love them! Keep it up

[msinsane]

CONGRATS and welcome to the forum this site is wonderful i have only been clean 8 days but i couldnt of done it with out these people i also am a mother  so i do feel you. i wish you the best and it is wonderful your husband is being sooo supportive good luck keep posting.....msinsane

[oxyaddict420]

Good for you.. Sounds like you are doing great.. Wish I could tackle it like that.. How were your withdrawls?  Deatails