It can be done.

[DarkEyedCreature]

No, I haven't done it yet, but I am starting my gear to change my life forever. No more seeking, feeling sick, looking for a high that just isn't the same anymore. This is how I see it: I am me. I am the person who wants to flush my pills and vow never to abuse them again. Then, there's the monster, that addictice voice that says " feed me" "feed me," " you can't quit." I don't have a disease. I'm not sick. I am addicted to a drug & it is curable by complete abstainance. The monster can pound in my head all it wants to, but only I can feed him. I will stave him & he will die. End of story.

[DarkEyedCreature]

Thank you all. I know what you mean about most of it being mental. I read a book called "rational recovery," and it really gave me the push to do this. I have it rough because my doctors started this medication with me while I was pregnant with my twins. Well, they are now 9 months old and I am very addicted to this stuff. 5-6 pecocets a day just makes me mad, and that is my current dosage. I would be "happier" with maybe 2 or three more. I've just had enough of living my life around this pill. I didn't realize I was taking them after the babies not only for pain, but because they helped me take care of them better. They took away the stress, but now they are just adding to it. I have two pills to last me through today, two tomorrow, and then a bottle of 14. I am terrible at tapering, so I am considering just going cold-turkey. I did it before and got to day 4, and I felt good!! Then, a doctor called in a script of vidodin for my back issues(which I didnt ask for, but it was after a MRI) and I made a bad choice by picking them up. So, here I am again, just trying to decide if I'd rather draw the suffering out by tapering or just letting go. Either way... I soon will be clean, and I will never put another pain pill in my mouth unless I went under the knife or something. Thank you all for your support. Here's the website I ran across on rational recovery http://www.rational.org/index.php?id=36 I went and got the book and it has helped me more than anything.

[gnarly_1]

HI ....well it sounds like your ready  to give it up and get your life back you have came to a good place to help you do this where all about home detoxing ....when your ready to get started let us know there are things you can do to make this a little more bearable ...
first off try not to let fear into the equation its always worst in our minds then it turns out to be...go into this with a positive attitude it will help you more then anything else you do
remember this is 1/3 physical and 2/3 mental so be ready to fight on both fronts this is a battle one or lost in ones own mind...read up all you can on doing this there are health pages on the right of the screen lots of good info there...check out the thomas recipe and get the stuff it suggests you might want to rent a bunch of movies so you got something to do at night its rare to sleep wile doing this...a hot bath goes a long way to releave the symptoms dont under estimate this therapy....this is just some of the basics keep reading the other posts so you get an idea of how this goes we will help you all we can but it is up to you to make the first move good luck and God bless......Gnarly        

[feohmoon]

I like your analogy very much...we all fight that monster daily.  You are determined and that is important...There is a lot of support and encouragement here and some good remedies to help you get through the discomfort.
Best of luck and please continue to post.  This forum provides an excellent outlet for you as well.

[dominosarah]

Time to get your life back.  Let us know how we can help.          sara

[FarOut000]

Darkeyed - I could not have said it better - that is "exactly" how I feel and yes I too have made up my mind to end the madness.  Good luck to you!!!

[wesinbama]

Good luck and keep us posted on how you are doing. And may I suggest aftercare as well for you. It really helps. Read some posts to get alot of good advice on here.

[Punkinhead75]

Hi there Darkeyed,

Sounds like you're ready to do it.  I'm just here to let you know you are not alone.  There's plenty of folks in here who will support you and help you and share their experiences with you.  Please don't be afraid to reach out and let us know what we can do to help.  I wish nothing but the best for you. God Bless!!!!!