Thanks for all of the feedback, I feel so blessed to have found this forum! You all are in my prayers as well! It is so hard, but I think for sure worth the reward!
Hi, well whe ur feeling good u strat to think you can handle a pill or 2 but once u start to get clean since we abused drugs r brains do not function properly anymore, and we have all these extra receptors in r brains now and we need more dopamine to feed them than normal people. but once u stop using they start to heal they will never go away but u will start to feel normal again. but if u start using again these receptors will start to activiate again and u will go through withdrawal and ur recovery will take even longer. sadly only 2 out of 10 addicts recover but if you stay focused and positive and have a good support group you will make it. you can do it i promise, just stay away from the pills your poor brain needs to heal.
No tricks, just STRENGTH! You need to have a plan now on how to handle that situation when it happens. Right now the main thing it to make sure not to abuse and go back. Then figure out what your triggers are and then try and find a way to deal with them in a positive way that doesn't involve the narcotics. Stick to it and BE STRONG!
YOU CAN DO THIS
PEOPLE CARE ABOUT YOU
YOU ARE STRONG ENOUGH!
All i can say is i am right there with you...i did not crave until 2 months later..when i was back to normal and thought i was strong...i think we forget how much trouble they caused us and the reasons we quit as time goes by....start thinking i can control my use...but i cant and found that our after a neck procedure a few months back....flushed them after 4 days as i was getting carried away...ongoing and i think that is why aftercare is so important
i'm the opposite, feel bad want pills, feel good i don't even think about it. i just try to keep busy and try not to let my mind wonder. i know its easier said than done.
good luck to you.