aftercare, aftercare aftercare! having a plan in place for the future with regard to your addiction is vital. just "not using" is not recovering. the demon is doing push-ups waiting for you to become complacent. don't think for a minute that it's over. we don't win the war. it is ongoing. forget that at your peril. peace, sway
WOW is all I can say, I felt like I wrote that post. Everything you said, is everything I felt and did while on that pill, especially counting out the pills to have enough for any event that was taking place! I am 11 days off going c/t and I have never been through such a bad time. Today I actually feel myself getting better and look forward to the rest of my life without the so called devil! KUDOS to you and Heres to another day under our belts...One day at a time is how I am going to live and enjoy every minute!
Thank You for the Kudos and the aftercare push. I do know I have to get into some program just the first step is very intimidating..I really do not know why it scares me as much as it does. Maybe I do not want to hear it come out of my mouth..maybe I do not want to admit it outloud?
I remember that 10 days was a great turning point for me...everyday thereafter gets only better physically and mentally. Everyday I feel the courage getting stronger to be able to say No but still am VERY aware that I have an extreme weakness if the opportunity presented itself "just right". Deep down inside I still secretly wish that I will be able to take just one and still be able to control that being it. I smoked for a while and finally quit after about14 years. I was pissed at my husband so I smoked "to show him" That was all it took..I was agien a smoker for about a year. Picked up right where I left off. I do understand the power of addiction somewhat. I have trouble thinking about going to a group and focusing on the addiction...I would rather focus on the healing and learning to live life without. It is sometimes hard to come on this site and read about other peoples stories becasue it just reminds me of mine however I do feel like I have an obligation to this site with the help it has given me..I enjoy giving back or forward which ever way you look at it.