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Hey all, I wanted to post to try and encourage everyone browsing wondering if they should/could take their life back. Ill give a brief description of what I was on: 3 scripts, 2 Drs a month 6+ years. 60 8mg dilaudid, 180 10mg methadone and 270 5mg oxy untill I ran out and was buying off the street. I stopped the dilaudid and oxys and tappered my methadone to 20mgs then jumped. Looking back the fear of stopping is so far worse then the actuall wd's. The physical symptoms are flu like including aches and pains but that all passes within a few days. I struggle more with the mental game. Anxiety, depression, lack of motivation, lethargy. Lack of sleep is also a tough one, maybe the toughest. Sneezing, yawning, teary eyes are all normal wd symptoms. Im still sneezing 5x in a row. Im at day 31 and compared to my time using 31 days isnt much, but if you wouldve asked me 6 months ago if I could be clean for 31 days the answer wouldve been HEWWWLLLL NAHHHHH! Here I am tho and everyone out there can do it also. Dont expect it to be easy. Its not. The biggest factor in all of this is TIME. A word youll grow to hate, but with the proper vitamins, excersize and lots of water...lotssss of water :-) this CAN be done. If youre reading thru the posts let everything sink in. There are people here that are truly heaven sent and at times it seems there sent just for you. So please decide that the time is now and flush whatever it is thats controlling your life. Hope this finds you well.

dominosarah · Accepted Answer

Noone has to be a prisoner to the pills or drink.  We hold the key that unlocks those chains and it is up to us to stick that key in and turn.

Rubber_Duck_Dog_Bone_in_the_pool_WhyNow · Answer

Great post! I know there are thousands just lurking and thinking on how they can stop.  Your words really highlighted what a wonderful life is without pills.

SmilingBright · Answer

Awesome post!!!  Congrats on your 32 days clean now!!!  Keep em coming.

livyspop · Answer

Thank you all for the recognition. Cant wait to hit 200! Holy crap...200 is insane! Best of luck everyone. Were in this for the long haul!

17mthssober275 · Answer

Congratulations on your clean time, and your post was great.

JimiMiddleFinger63 · Answer

Medhelp should install a "like" button. Peace and love.

Livyspop - Keep on truckin.....

-Jim

vicki595 · Answer

Good job Jimi and glad you checked in...

Livyspop- Congrats on your 31 days and those days start to add up quickly; it's amazing!

dominosarah · Answer

Glad to see you will back!

JimiMiddleFinger63 · Answer

Thanks guys....yes I feel good. And will be around more often now that summer is winding down. Been on the road too long. It is nice to be working close to home. If I can offer some encouragement to someone, or some halfway decent advice, I'll be glad to do so. Peace

VICourageous · Answer

Good, Good, Good and Better Yet!! To both of you..
Hi Jimi, I miss that face around here..lol

ActingBrandNew · Answer

@ livyspop - Great post!

@ JimiMiddleFinger63 - Yes....big congrats on the 200+ days!

dominosarah · Answer

Congrats on 200 plus days!!!  You are so deserving~

JimiMiddleFinger63 · Answer

Great post. I never thought I would be free of pills. I was a repeat failure at sobriety. I am now over 200 days clean. It can be done. It just takes the honest desire to quit. I don't think I was honest about it until this last time. If I can do it....anyone out there, who is wondering if they have the strength, can do it also. Was it easy? No....But it was well worth it. God bless and peace.

-Jimi

kyle505 · Answer

There are a few on the forum now who would benefit by reading your post. 31 days clean - and so much garbage to detox from. Amazing. 
Addiction is something that we can never take casually. It is relentless, and so we must also be relentless in our recovery. 
Thank you so much for posting. Now on to 31 months clean!
K

ROSYouralright · Answer

This was a really great post!! Thank you for sharing!! You are DOING GREAT and have such a positive attitude! Keep on keeping on!

HappyDays2Come · Answer

I love this post!! You're so right! Time, patience, and the desire for a healthy life are key. You've done amazing and you're inspiring more people than you probably realize. Thank you for sharing!

livyspop · Answer

You guys helped get me to this point. Id like to pay it foward if I can with the folks still struggling to get to day 1. Just to know it can be done and that there are people willing to help all the while not juding you even once, that is imeasurable in what that does to someones phsyce.

dominosarah · Answer

I didnt know i held the key either digger. I always blamed someone else for keeping it~

digger1976 · Answer

Great post Livyspop, love your attitude my friend. If only I had known I held the key all along I would have turned it years ago Sarah, I can sit comfortable in my own skin again, 3 months in and feeling great again. Everything is so possible with a little strength of mind and determination, its your life peeps, go get it back you all deserve it!