going to talk to doctor on monday

[chubbers]

ok well i dont know if all of you know my storey but i have been abusing oxycontin for the last year. i get them from my husband who has a legitimate script for 80mg oxys. i am taking anywhere from 100-120mg a day. i have been trying to taper for the last 5 months and have only gotten down to 60-80 a day. i cant do this on my own so im going to tell my o=doctor what is going on and see if he can help me. i cant do this any longer it is making me sick and depressed. any advice on what i can ask him for? or should i ask to get on suboxene?

[chubbers]

yesh i tried cold turkey once and i only made it 1 day, so i dont think i can do it that way. the only thing im worried about now is my husband is still taking the pills and he really doesnt want me to go on the suboxene for some reason. im worried if i know they ar ein the house and he is snorting them all the time that i will go right back to using. i cant tell my husband im going to get suboxene or he will flip out. but i have to do this i will tell him once i get it and if he flips out whatever i have to worry about myself at this point

[worried878]

You will sweetie...u will feel much better...If you cant taper and you cant CT..perhaps it is the answer for you...Have you tried CT yet?

[chubbers]

hey thats exactly how i feel, i read everyones post and i cry wishing that i could be where they are at and i am so weak bc i cant do it. i really hope this suboxene works bc if not i give up.  im in a really bad place now with a lot of things but i think once i get off the pills i will see thing s a lot cleaer and i will be able to deal with my problems. thanks i will keep you all updated!

[LONESOME]

YES TRY THE SUB I'M ON IT RIGHT NOW AND IS THE BEST THING EVER, I NEVER THOUGHT I COULD DO THIS AND I WOULD READ THE STORIES HERE ABOUT BEEN FREE AND ALL THAT AND I WOULD SIT HERE AND CRY B/C I DIDN'T THINK I COULD EVER SAY THAT WELL I'M SO CLOSE TO SAY THAT B/C NOT UNTIL I'M DONE W/ THE SUB I WILL BE ABLE TO SAY I'M COMPLETETLY DONE WITH THE PILLS BUT TODAY IS 6 DAYS FREE OF HYDROCODONE AND 5 DAYS ON SUB I'M TAKING 3 2MG OF IT, I STARTED ON 5 2M OF IT SO I'M TAPPERING I THINK IS FAST B/C I KNOW HOW IT CAN BE ADDICTING AND WE ALL KNOW HERE THAT WE ALL ARE ADDICTS SO I DON'T WANT TO MESS W/ IT FOR LONGER THAN I CAN BE.
LET ME TELL YOU I FEEL GREAT I SEE THINGS SO CLEAR LIKE I DID BEFORE THE PILLS I WANT TO DO THING NOW IS GREAT, SO I KNOW YOU CAN DO THIS AND YOU WILL DON'T BE AFFRAID I KNOW I WAS BUT PLEASE STAY IN TOUCH PEOPLE HERE THEY ARE REALLY GREAT LOVE EVERYBODY. GOOD LUCK!!!!!!!!!

[cathy5841]

chubbers i am glad you are doing this. think positive.  maybe you didnt get lower than 80 mgs.  but at least you didnt get frustrated enough to go back up.  this will come to you...help is always great.  i am in your corner...you will do this.
love ya
cathy

[dove3053]

I tried to taper many times and I really never felt it was getting me anywhere. I did ct and with the help of valium I was able to stop.

As far as the suboxene goes I have heard good and bad things about it. I think maybe more good than bad and some people swear by I think your on the right track.

I'm a firm believer in never honest with your Dr. I know it can be hard but I think they have probably heard it all.

Dove

[chubbers]

thanks, i know suboxene is addicting, but im just going to use it to get through the withdrawals bc i cant handle it. i know it is addicting so i am going to be very careful with it, but i cant take the oxycontin anymore, i really thikn it has messe dup my insides or something. i am always sick i never have any energy and this is when im on the pills so i cant imagine how i would feel wihtout them.

[Flutterby111]

DId I say BUG step?  THat sounds kinda little-I meant BIG step....typos.,

[Flutterby111]

You are not a baby...look around you....we're all addicts here sweetheart.  You do what you have to to make your life managable...and yours isn't right now, BUT you recognize it!  AND you should give yourself some major credit right now-you just took a bug step!  Making an appointment is huge!  I know you'll be nervous, it's kinda embarrassing and you'll have to swallow some pride, but so many of us have done it!  Me included!  It'll be ok, it'll be better than ok as soon as you kick this habit! :)

[GoingToMakeIt]

Don't beat yourself up about not being able to do it on your own. That is why so many have quit c/t. Taper is a tough way to go. Good luck on this route. Just use it to get clean. It too is an addictive drug.

[bobby139]

I have a problem with perk's myself..Have had 2 surgries in the last 2 yrs. For about two yrs or more I've been taking 7 mg about 15 or more aday..I tried cold turkey but had a sezuire BUT i have had them in the past so that dosn't mean anyone else would get one but my doctor is working with me and tapering the dose and the way i take it. You still go thur w/d's specially like in my case doctor don't actually know the truth on how many i was really taking, but the w/d's are for me not near what the people here  have been thur. that are strong enouph to quit cold turkey! There are some very special people on this site and will help you thur this, they are alway's there for u. You have taken the first step, keep posting and good luck,....and welcome.

[chubbers]

thanks!, im starting to feel better about things, i think maybe the suboxene will be my answer to this ****. i have been a slave for this it feelsl ike an eternity, i tried to do it on my own but i cant, i sort of feel like a failure and a baby but oh well as long as i get off of it right

[mikeyhow30]

Wish you all the Luck.. I am feeling you ..

[Flutterby111]

I don't think all doctors handle suboxene...but I checked out their website and entered the zipcode and it showed all doctors who handle it in the area.  I think this is a great FIRST step honey.  Nope, I don't have advice on what to ask him for...he's the one to ask, and if he doesn't have answers, you ask for a referral to someone who will have answers.  Check your insurance to see if your insurance covers chemical dependency....mine doesn't but a counselor has still been advising me on every step I'm taking...but I quit cold turkey so it's a little different here....  I think, from what I've heard here that it takes a while to get in with the suboxone so in my opinion, I think you should go to the site, find a doctor in your area who handles it, make an appointment there ALSO, in the meantime....just to get it scheduled, because I know you want this handled ASAP.  you can always cancel if your doctor has another plan in mind! Good luck honey-you can do it! :)