I've struggle with addiction my whole life. With my 1st pregnancy I was clean the whole time and felt great. When they sent me home they sent a prescription for lortab and once I had it filled that was it. I switched to ultram b/c I can order it online legally b/c it's not technically a scheduled drug here in kansas, but I have been on it for about 2 years now. Taking up to 25 pills a day. I'm currently 5 weeks pregnant and taking 10-15 a day. I'm so scared that I have already done damage to my baby and I consumed with guilt I cry myself to sleep each night. I've tried to get off them many many times in the last 2 years, and recently i've been trying to cut down, but am not having much success. I see a therapist for this, but she doesn't know about the baby b/c I feel too guilty. I don't think ultram is an actual opiate, but it's considered, opiate-like. Dr's used to think it wasn't as strong as other opiates and safer, but now they're finding it's just as addictive. It's listed as a class C for pregnancy b/c they don't have any info on it. Does anyone have any experience with it? I don't know if I should tell my obgyn when I go in for my 1st appt or not. I keep thinking I'll be off it by then, but I've been thinking that for years....and I still can't get off. HELP!