I know I need to quit but don't want to?

[Luvu2much]

I started taking lortabs for the buzz. Just here and there. I've never been an addictive person. Well here I am taking these to feel normal. I have the will to quit but sometimes I wonder how people deal with "life" without a pill buzz? Sounds stupid I know. But I feel like I'll not have fun doing stuff w/out a pill. I've tapered down from 8 10s to 3-4 10s. I have 3 kids, I work in a high profile job. No one would suspect this of me. My husband has the same problem. He is ready to quit too. I'm so tired all the time now. Is that from the hydros? Will I have more energy when I get off these for good? I want to be normal and feel normal. I need a pep talk as to why it's going to be better when I'm off the pills. I'm nervous.
Thanks!

[AJS1976]

I am at my worst when I am at work which is everyday. Today I came in here shaking, sweating and feeling like i was going to puke....  It took a few hours but it wore off. Probably because I took 6mg of subuxone but I waited as long as I could before touching it. In the taper if you can go a day without then go that day without and take one next day...  It's good to trick your brain when tapering. The brain goes nuts thinkings about all bad stuff sitting at my desk. I have such a fear of being sick from withdrawals that I actually make myself sick. We have to find a way to make it through work in a positive way and not feeling sick and thinking to much bad stuff....  I dont know what it's going to take but Im working on it...  Hope your having a good day!

[Luvu2much]

It's the hardest at work.  I need to figure out something else to think about while chained to a desk all day staring at a computer.

[cleaninitup]

I would highly recommend staying very far away from kratom. Its a pretty addictive drug and you don't wanna swap one for the other. Not to sure about the others best bet is to give your pharmavist a call and ask them about interactions. Best of luck and keep going on your taper it is well worth it in the end.

[Luvu2much]

Or has anyone used this DL-Phenylalanine? Not sure if I should since I am on Prozac and Trazadone.

I also used to be an avid fitness guru. Loved to exercise. Now I don't. I also don't hardly eat. I just don't feel like eating. Is that part of being on the pills too long? I've been using for a year.

I am so thankful for this place.

[Luvu2much]

I'm all choked up by the quick responses. Thank you. I've battled depression and anxiety all my life. I'm 38. Lortabs made me feel better. I started getting unreasonably tired and got tested for everything. Heart is ok, thyroid is ok, all other blood work came back fine. So then they diagnosed me with chronic fatigue and now fibromyalgia. I found a doctor that made it easy to get pain Meds. Well, i could get 40 norcos every 10 days. But I had to get injections as part of treatment. It's all ********. I couldn't get refills without the shots. I'd make up an ache to get the shots. But with fibro I hurt everywhere. I want to quit the pills because I'm tired of going to this quack and being his pin cushion. I hurt but sometimes I wonder if I hurt because of fibro or because of the pills.

I do remember that I got a bad case of food poisoning and didn't take a pill for over a week. Once I recovered from the sickness, I remember that I had never felt so good. I'm holding on to that memory and hoping that's how I feel once these are out of my system. I have Valium and klonopins that will help with the anxiety and sleep problems.

Has anyone used kratom for w/d's?

[ricart70]

Yes as aj said another good decision would be exercise and eat good foods.I run 3 miles every day.It really helps with anxiety and worry.Also helps with energy alot.

[Bkitty]

~Reasons to quit,,,for yourself and your beautiful family,,for your job,,for your mental and physical health. To get your life back. I know how good those pills make you feel. I love them a lil too much myself,,,but the thing was over time the more I took (10-20/day) I never ever got that "good" feeling they gave me like in the beginning. Soon I was going around and around on the merry go round. I never did get that feeling back,,,then they kinda twisted on me and the more I took the worse I felt and increased depression. I too have a "high" profile job. I came close to throwing all my education and hard work thru the years out the window for a stupid pill that controlled my,,,,,,,,well everything. I wanted me back. Im at day 20 today. Its been a rough ride. But I see glimpses of me peeking thru each day and as each day goes by she stays a lil longer. Everyone is different with the physical withdrawals in the beginning 1-5days and you should be thru the worst of that,,,but its the mental part that will get ya. You need to address the underlying issue,,,Why do you need these pills so bad? You dont go back to your old self overnight. It takes time. You are tired from the pills,,,they catch up and take a toll eventually. Its not so bad on the other side. Im still a work in progress,,,,but you have soooo much to lose if you dont jump off now. I wish you the best! This is a great place with amazing people how have great advice.~Bkitty

[AJS1976]

It sounds stupid but the way you get your energy and wellness back is by eating right and exercising..  I love pills and hate doing anything without them however to get well we have to put in the work once all the illness passes.Tapering really ***** I am doing it right now with suboxone. I am miserable and its hard for me to get up and go to work everyday. I have a great job the only difference for me I am open about what I am going through. When I told them it was like a huge weight was lifted off my shoulders and I felt more comfortable there. Mentally prepare yourself for this because the mind is a huge part of it...  I know because mine gets the best of me ten times a day...  Keep me posted on how your doing..  Wish you and your husband the best.

[ricart70]

Hi,You will return to normal once you get off of the pills.This won't happen right away.The pills replace the normal feel good chemicals in your brain,therefore yuor brain stops producing the endorphine itself.When you quit there is then a discrepancy in chemicals because it takes a couple of weeks for your brain to start producing the chemicals again.At 30 days you will start to feel more energy.You will fel alot better at 60 days.It just takes time but is well worth it.I am 74 days off of 150-200 mgs of oxy.I feel almost 100%.Quitting these will be the best desision you ever made.