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[hereigoagain48]

dear friends...first let me say  how incredibly humbled i am to hear all of your stories...i am so moved by all of your honesty with complete stragers....in some of you i can hear the anger, the sadness, and the desperation and yet we all seem to have the same goal and that is to find the easiest and painless way to come off of the pain meds, and to know that we are normal and suffering together.   i found this site by accident just looking for ways to come off my pain meds as well...i have a history with speed....many many years ago and have been clean for the last 23 years.  i have impingement sydrome of the left shoulder with a light tear that causes me a lot of pain...now i used to have a very high pain threshold as well as a very high tolerance to pain meds or any meds for that matter...now i am on oxycodone 10/325...between 6 and 8 a day...i have 7 grandbabies all 5 and under and when i have spent a day  with them, i either "double up" or i am down for days on the heating pad paying for it. My dr told me months ago that he felt i needed pt but that just made me hurt more so i opted for the pain meds, it was easier. and like some that have written, i used to get all of this energy and felt so productive, and now, well now i just need to feel "normal"...!  You have all posted some great information as to what to have on hand when any of us are ready to quit cold turkey or otherwise...so i had an appt for an mri and i was very nieve about the mri, i had no idea what to expect and i couldnt do it...i freaked out...so when i told my dr, it took me another 2 months and probably another 200 more pills before i finally got to have my mri last night...as it turns out, i do have a tear in one of my tendonds and i probably require surgery so ive said all along that as soon as i have my surgery, i will do what ever it takes to come off of the pills.  Right?  or is this what we all say?  Some of you have suffered some horrific traumatic injuries...and i could ever imagine enduring what you all have and do endure as far as pain goes...at times i wonder why you even want to come off of the meds when if it helps you to get thru another day with some sort of happiness, isnt it ok then...? or is it the absolute control the pills have over our lives...?  i count mine every single day...i check on the calendar when i can call for a refill...it does prevent me  from leaving the house for many days at a time...and i have never had to buy them off the street as i would not even know where?  



One thing i have to wonder is with all the pills being taken on this site, and all the honesty about the quanitity, not one person has mentioned their liver...what can happen to the liver....i was told, ore read that 4000 mg of acetamimophen is all the liver can handle in a day, but i guess im wrong huh?

I read one mans post who stated that he takes 160 mg of oxycodone that is like 5200 milg of acetaminophen...daily?  wow...!!!  



so ive been thru this once before but didnt realize what it was i was going thur until the 3rd day.  the pharmancy wouldnt allow me to pick up my script soo soon so i figured oh well, ill just stop....right...i thought i was dying from the flue...it was horrible and i went at least 6 nights with NO sleep...hot baths that finally dried my out so bad i was pealing...the runs, the body aches are the worst...i fnally got some diazapam but not eve 3 of those helped me sleep and thats what is needed...sleep and good food...yep...good food...soups and good filling food in small portions several times a day...the heating pad was a life saver...honestly...but here i am...8 months back on to the pills and i have questions...like dumb girls questions...some that may not be so appropriate...i want to know and have a stock pile of all the stuff  i need to kick this once again...so i need so advise ...what is suboxen and how do we use it...i have 800 miligram ibuprofen for the aches...immodium for the runs...but the muscle spasms...has anyone ever bought soma online before...my dr will not give me soma and its the best....i can buy it from mexico very cheap...but is it the same stuff....?  and the suboxen, where do i get that and do i just ask my dr for it?



i would love any information that any of you are willing to share...again, i am going to wait until after my surgery, but if any of you have had the same surgery and would like to share your experiences, good or bad, i would love to listen...



all in all i admire all of your courage...you all have so many unique experiences and as i said before some of you are living with pain that  could never edure...i wasnt quite sure how to even begin this conversation so i apologize for some of my rambling...but i do have some questions and i am curious if anyone has bought anything on line...soma,oxycodone, hydrocodone and where...a reputatable company....it is the soma that i want...



and to all of you who are struggling, hang in there, it does get better....and those of you will kids, talk to em...when the time is right, talk...we are all products of our enviornments and we have all developed these addictions due to things im our family....we have to break the cycle for our own kids...so any of you that wish to write, please do and i wish for you all a good nite sleep....

[YesLife4Me]

Hi and Welcome!   There is no miracle drug or medication that will stop withdraws, but there are the things such as in the Thomas Recipe to the right that will help make you more comfortable.   You just have to be prepared, know what to expect and embrace the withdraws knowing that you are getting all the toxins out of your body.   As far as online RX, I don't know what or if there are legal implications, but I have heard that what you get may not be pure or it could have something even more addicting added to it.   Why not just ask your Dr for it instead?

[notordinary]

Hi, ask your doctor for clonidine. It is a life saver through wd's.
I have used it twice, once years ago after like my 3-4 surgery.
Then more surgery and now off opiates with the help of the clonidine.
Hardly any wd symptoms. As in restless leg, running to the bathroom.
It helps with most, but it will not help much on the mental side of things.
That you have to work through on your own.
Good luck.

[cleanguy]

When I started to get clean, i desperately searched for that miracle pill to make it go away. Tapering made things worse for me it prolonged the inevitable. I thought about xanax, ambien, etc... it just perpetuated the endless cycle.

The Thomas recipe helped alleviate some of those wd symptoms. I still takes ltyrosine to this day... over 100 days later. I will stop taking that eventually. We all have to break our pill taking patterns.

Im glad you found this site! It was and is critical for me in my recovery. To treat pain now for some spinal issues, im using an accupuncturist. It has helped me more than physical therapy and oxycontin.

All my best! Andy

[Roni7]

I am so happy and admire you all we need a place get real!!!! Stop fooling our selfs.. But omg this is harder then when I got off of 24 years on methadone and cocaine